aNNa` HaLLiweLL

2008-05-25T16:50:00.001+08:00

When you love him - truly love him,
how are you supposed to get over him?
I've tried everything possible...
but I just can't.
Isn't that what true love is?

I keep telling myself that I don't miss you,
and that I don't love you,
hoping someday I'll believe it.

In my mind he isn't worth anything,
but in my heart he is worth everything

Love is letting go,
even when you dont want to.
Love is letting him be happy
even when it doesn't involve you.
Love is being okay with just being friends
Love is being able to say goodbye
because you know its the best thing for him
Love is letting go

Love that we cannot have
is the one that lasts the longest,
hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard,
but holding on to someone who doesn't
even feel the same is much harder.
Giving up doesn't mean you are weak!
It only means that you are strong enough to let go!

My biggest fear is that one day
we will pass each other on the streets
and have an artificial conversation.

We are the perfect couple,
we're just not in the perfect situation.

What happens when he's your prince charming,
but you're not his cinderella?

True love leaves a memory no one can steal
and a heartache no one can heal

I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.

I would give up everything for one moment with you;
for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you

Its hard to pretend you love someone when
you don't but its harder to pretend that
you don't love someone when you really do.

got this while bloghopping..

tis is wat im feeling for the past 4 years...

can i please run away and migrate or sumting?

2008-05-25T02:53:00.002+08:00

..alhamdulilah..

i thank GOD for giving me a friend that i can talk abt everything under the sun with...

im glad i can tell her all my problems and my fears...

even abt my crazy "suicide idea"...
erk...

Thanks alot Cheryl..

trust me...

im in such a huge mess right now...
driven to a corner not knowing what to do now..

im so lost and confused...

my mum's cold shoulder treatment is not helping either...

same goes for that particular sumone...

can everyone please gimme a break already??

2008-05-23T02:20:00.002+08:00

never in my life...
did i ever imagine that I'll be looking forward to go to work instead of dragging my feet...

it happened earlier today...

i just simply cant wait to go to work...

to get myself busy...
to get myself overly-occupied with work...

so i wont start thinking or assuming abt all toopid things...

and to top it all off...

i had an argument with my mum before i left for work...

i just cant take her naggings anymore...
all her restrictions...
all her assumptions abt how disrespectful i was to her...

and the ironic thing is...

i can never live my life without her...
she's my pillar of strength...

but these few days...
i simply lost it...

i cannot think straight anymore...
i dunnoe what im thinking anymore...
im just lost and confused...

im pressurised.

im driven to one corner and i really do not know wat i shud do...

one moment...
my heart is telling me to slow down and take my time...

another moment...
my heart is telling me to jz msg him...

but the real fact is...
i just wish i can stop time and let everything just stand still...
until i can catch up with my own self.

frankly speaking...
i feel like im not being myself anymore.

its scary.

2008-05-22T01:27:00.003+08:00

i cant believe i left my bday Anderson's ice-cream in my office's fridge...
urgh. Thanks to David for the belated bday ice-cream!
he knew i like ice-cream...
and im sooooo in need of ice-cream right now...
haiz.

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that feeling is back again...

the time where i feel like im the only one trying hard...
maybe its one-sided and i do not even realise it...

why am i still hanging on to that tiniest hope...?

will he realise it only when im finally gone from his life...?

his bestfren is the best ever friend a guy could ever have...congrats to his gf...
i've never known a friend who would help so much just to get us together again...
im so sorry i wasted yur efforts these few days...

4 years...

if after that 4 years he's still not over the fact that i hurt him the last time...
then he will never get over the fact no matter how long it takes...

will i ever move on...?

hanya ALLAH yang maha mengetahui...

2008-05-20T22:35:00.003+08:00

maybe its time for me blog abt my bday...
its just another addition year to my age...
i feel so old already. urgh.

so anyways...
2 days before my bday...
Cheryl planned a surprise gathering for me...

well..
i knew she's goin to plan one...
its jz i dint know wen it's goin to be...
cz i got 2 dates with her that week lor.

so anyways...
met Cher at vivo...
was goin to "watch" Ironman lor...
but then...
she lured me to the rooftop...
where my sistaz was already there to surprise me with their Hersey icecream... with lighted joss-sticks?? HHAHAHA...[omg. the choc so sweet can?!but thanks..haha]

den while waiting for me to finish my slice of icecream...
they gave aziq her belated gift...
the gift is so cute...suits her just fine... :)
den its my gift...

they gave me a HHEEEEEUUUUGGEEE box...
from that 'where best friends are made' bears shop...
so exciting can!!
den my sistaz were telling me to open it...
wen i opened it...
the first thing i saw was the bear's top...
written "SPEED"...
ALAMAK...!!!

my very own "SPEED RACER" bear can!!
and they named it Rain Jnr...
its legalised okay!
my Rain Jnr have his own birth cert...born on the 16.05.2008.
HAHAHAHA...
same bday as me!! weee~!!!
im so lovin` it laaa...my beloved RAIN JNR...

Thanks so much my darlingsss...~
really really appreciate it...

den we ate dinner..
bought LJS and ate at the rooftop again cz LJS was packed...
camwhore session...

n we went seperate ways...
thanks to Cheryl for the wonderful surprise and also for the prezzie...
thanks Shafik too... nice written card... hahahaha...

so i'll show the pichas now...

Mastermind: Cheryl
Accomplices: Fiknatic Sistaz (not complete)
My Gain? : Rain Jnr!! n lurrrvee from my closest friends

this is when Rain [my Mat Sepet] meets my beloved Rain Jnr...awww..~~

den on my bday itself...
me n bestie planned to stay at Conrad Hotel for one day one night...

it was a really fun experience...

lets jz see the pichas okay?

let me jz say...i love Conrad's pillows!! so comfyy...

and this was my bestie's very very bad attempt of taking my jump shot!!
trust me...i almost died laughing becoz of it...
[i tink more of dying due to asthmatic attack got la..so funny!]

after so many tries...she finally got my jump shot... hahahaha...

anyways...
it was a memorable bday this yr...

many many thanks to my darlings...
and to those whu've wished me...
thanks...

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i really have no idea if i've blown my chances away...
but i believe...i've given u and myself so many chances...

it have been 4 long years...

it took all my available courage just to send that one miserable msg....
dint expect much in return thou...

was happy that u replied...
i have butterflies in my stomach wen u responded...

but u just had to ask that qns...
even thou u wanted to hurt me...
u could hav jz said that u hated me...
and i wld have been just hurt...nothing more...

but don't u know that by asking that...it wld definitely hurt my pride..?

u kept mentioning abt how much i've hurt u...
don't u know that i've hurt myself too in the process and along the way?

i've quarreled with my mum within these 4 years or more on and off becz of u...
because i defended u...
but will u realise how much u mean to me?
i love my mum very much...yet i quarreled with her bcz of u...
but will u sense my sincerity?

i guess not...

i know i kept saying that i'll stop contacting u...
but i keep trying hard to contact u regardless since these four years...

but please know that...
i have never apologised to a guy so many times in my life...

i was too apologetic that i sensed and feel like i've lost myself and my dignity in the process...

yet...i stayed...
even thou u've really hurt me with just that one question...

trust me...
this is going to be my very last attempt to try to make things up with you...
if u feel that its not worth it to be my friend...
den please dun bother to reply...

otherwise...
u'll know wat to do...

cz after last night...
i cried again because of u...
i felt so tired of explaining and apologising to u...
i feel so pressurized and traumatized...

i hope we can jz forget everyting and start everyting afresh...

if not...
lets just take it that we shall move on from our lives from then on...

..then i shall await for wat will happen tomorrow..

2008-05-16T02:49:00.002+08:00

James Blunt Concert was a BLAST!

the boss dint perform anyways. haha. but he knew the band la.
aftershow party was nerve-wrecking.
i starstrucked wen shaking hands with James.
he's cute in person.
omg. so embarrassing. urgh.

gotta go sleep now thou`.
i shall not put high hopes for later.
but i hope i'll have fun.
:)
till later.

2008-05-11T19:27:00.002+08:00

Happy Mummy's Day to all dear mummysss!!

Especially to my dearest mummy :)
yu know its difficult for me to live without u...
love ya lots mama..

gave her mummy's day prezzie last wednesday...
a full 4 in 1 massage and treatment at Wayan Retreat...

she was naggy after the retreat...as expected...
she wanted to know the price i paid...
i kept mum abt it...
i even told the staff not to tell any of my family members. HAHAHA...

watever it is... i knew she appreciate it.
:D hehe...

will have a date with my mummy 2mrw...

going to James Blunt Concert on Tuesday...FOC!
WOO HOO~~!!
all courtesy from my dear boss Greg McIntosh. HAHAHAH...
and we got backstage passes as well...cz Greg is playing in the band la...
omg. cant wait!
so-called my first ever concert?
going there with my collegue.
we're going to have so much fun! weee~~~!!!

movie date with Cher on wed...

work on thursday...

and PARTAYYY on Fridayyy!!!

FROZEN and date with the doc on Saturday...

OMG. wat an exciting week..all days next week...
simply cannot wait! hahahaha...

will update soon aites! :)

2008-05-10T03:26:00.002+08:00

i seriously can't believe that i asked...even thou i knew wat the answer is gonna be...
simply dumb. urgh.

i can see everyone's busy with their own lives.

i dint dare to ask if they are free or not next weekend...
coz i dun wanna know the answer...
the answer will just be as disappointing...
or worst still...
they might just decide not to reply my msg...

ouh well...
its their lives...

i'd better dun be meddlesome right?

am gonna have 2 dates with Cheryl next week.. [our date with the doc]
sumting to look forward to..
haha...

i simply love sponteneous meetings...

went for 2 interviews last tuesday...
one in tampines and the other in buona vista...
note the distance? each on other 2 ends of Singapore mind u!

after both interviews...
i was craving for my oh-ever-favourite-Berry'd-Treasure frm Kopi Bean...

msged bestie asking if she wanna meet me after work...
but she's meeting her bf after work...
so obviously i cant meet her...

at the same time i was msging cher...

i told her abt my craving lor...
so she told me to met her at amk hub...
take note..amk hub have kopi bean hor!! hahahaha...

so we met at almost 7.40pm...
chatted abit..
drank my fav drink...
and went back...
cz Cher had a looonnnggg day at work...
hahahaha...
so did i...
travelling here and there cost me so much $$...urgh...

thanks for meeting me Cher...
really appreciate it. :)

...tell me how im supposed to breathe without air...

2008-05-04T22:38:00.003+08:00

Facebook is lagging so much that its pissing me off.
pfft.

i guess this PMS is taking over me.
my mood swings have been super crazy all week.

one moment im soo happy..laughing and all...
den the next moment im feel so sad...
then i started thinking abt sooo many things...
then i even have this thinking if my parents ever loved me...
OMG.

i shud nvr be left alone wen im pms-ing.
its so depressing.
i hate it.

finally i've finished watching They Kiss Again (ISWAK 2)...
OMG.
the ending so touching lor...
i cried...
i hope my future husband will be as understanding as ZhiZhu! haiz...
shall not blabber more abt the show...
i wont spoil the fun for nisa...
or she'll kill me...
hope they'll come out with iswak 3!!
hahahahaha...
simply love the series laaa....

went on a waffle date at Gelare with cher last week...

cz i had a terrible driving lesson...
driving instructor was sumone i nvr got before...
he was so shockingly politely-sacarstic...
more scary den just sacarstic lor...
kept mounting the curb at the crank course..
that i almost cried... yes...almost...
but i dint...
i jz glared at my instructor... urgh.
i was practically counting the minutes for the lesson to end faster lor..

so after the lesson was straight to go for dinner cum dessert with cher...
was craving for icecream...
so we went for waffles icecream...
so yummy pls...
we gossiped and chatted...
felt good again after that...

work was as usual...
crazy and insane...
another instructor resigning...
bullshit...
tired of all these crap...
so i just couldnt be bothered anymore...

went on a date with my darling bro JJ / Aaron yesterday at Vivo...
planned to go n buy my hp and a mother's day prezzie...
but i ended up not buying anything lor...
Vivo was so crowded...[its Saturday..DUHZ!]
but den again...vivo got nothing much to shop lor..
so boring...
so we just windowshopped and spotted each other mistakes...
HAHAHAHAHAH...
spotting!! love that!!
den he treated me to chicky rice at the chicken rice shop...
eating with him was hilarious lor...
talked abt the infamous Pai Ti...
which i dint touched at all...

at the cinema...
all over was RAIN and PATRICK DEMPSEY...
so i kept telling him...
"ooohhh...RAIN!!!" ... "ooohhh...mcDreamyyy!!!"
i tink he was annoyed by me...
HAHAHAHAHAH...
like i care lor...hahaha

den we watched 'Over her dead body'...
movie was freaking hilarious!!
so funny...
his treat as well...

aiyah...
i wanted to pay...
but he said...our next date that i pay...
IDIOT.

anyhoos..
i had a lovely time with him...
i forgot all my problems...
which was nice...

so now...
im kinda excited...
i have sooo many things to look forward to...

my surprise mummy's day prezzie...tis wednesday...
James Blunt concert next tuesday...[well..hopefully...my boss performing lorr!! weee wiittt!!]
movie date with cher next wed... [McDreamy!!!]
movie date with mal and nisa..still tentative.. [RAIN!!!]
hotel date with bestie next 2 weeks... [cant wait!!]
Batam one day trip next mth!!! [still pending..]

i just hope everyting goes well...
no screw ups watsoever...

so wish me luck!!

best of luck to those whu r in a relationship!! *winkz*

2008-04-23T01:31:00.002+08:00

well..im tryin to do a good deed here...

so im promoting for sumone...

he's the photographer-in-training and she's the photoshop master...
the one that does all the editting... [which is nice btw...]

so pls do me and them a favour...
just drop by their site...
and meriuhkan lagi suasana... HAHAHHA..

http://zer03-inc.blogspot.com/

no obligations thou...
jz view the site if u wish...

dah promote da kaz... suke? haha..

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now back to me...

my day started so idiotically insane...
was so pissed...

my retail therapy just HAD to be postone to 2mrw..
bingit sak...

so anyways..
my day with my 2 favourite girls was a BLAST...

went over to Holland V...
memories.. haha...
love it there!!
so nice can?
but so bloody far...

had our Cold Rock icecream..
mine was heavenly...
den had a tour ard Holland V...

its like going back to the past lor...
its even like we're in Bangkok...
with all the shops...
hahahaha...

den we took a bus to Vivo...
walked ard...chatted...bitching...
window-shopped...
and finally our movie...
saw RAIN'S poster btw...
OMG. SO HAWT.

'Run Fatboy Run' was disgusting-ly funny!!
laughed so hard till i cried...
HAHAHAHA...

den we went for dessert and still laughed abt the movie...

afterwhich we went our seperate ways...

all in all...
i had from a bad day to a very good day...
thanks so much to my 2 lovely ladies... :)

2008-04-22T12:07:00.002+08:00

going for abit of retail therapy..icecream and movie with my two most favourite girls later...
cant wait.

i NEED ice-cream badly to soothe my heart.

pfft.
idiots.
why dun u just die and spare me the heartbreaks?

2008-04-22T01:22:00.005+08:00

.OMG.
simply said
.im ~~depressed~~ EMOtional.
seriously. no joke watsoever.

wat is it about?
only she knows.
haiz.

im going to delete my Friendster account cz i see no point in keeping it.
looking at my friends getting hitched..engaged..married and even having a baby..
one after another...
is getting depressing...for me lah...
im happy for them.. [althou i wasnt invited to any of those mentioned above]

so i've decided...
im deleting my friendster account...
so im going thru my testimonials now...
and i found my most favourite one...
which im goin to copy paste it here so i can keep it forever even if i've deleted my friendster account...

Sri
10/15/2004 7:22 pm

Dear Anna alias Diana ..

Srinathan here... And here goes your
testimonial ...

Basically a very good student who likes
to learn, pay attention in the class. You
are a very very calm girl ... Never ever
seen her shouting loud ... always keep
quiet and do work ... I like your
commitment in studies ...

Very Good girl .. Keep it up ... Have
been teaching her for the past one year
and no doubt you are one of my
favourite students too ...

Very good again and keep up your
good commitment in studies ... Would
like to see you recieving awards for
good studies ...

My Best regards for you to have a very
bright Future and a very powerful
career ....

its from my most beloved teacher ever...
Mr. Srinathan whu never fails to cheer me up with his sms...
he's also my refree in my resume..haha...

the rest of the testimonials...
haiz...
complimenting here and there...
i dunnoe la...
i tink its only polite and respectful that u compliment the user wen u give them a testimonial...
peoples' real heartfelt feelings...
u'll nvr know...

so if u know me...
u know where to find me! haha.

goodbye Friendster..
its nice logging in with you all these years...since Oct 2003...
HAHAHAHAHAHA...

2008-04-21T17:34:00.002+08:00

OMG.
im trying to edit my LJ account...but i feel so dumb.
tak paham sak...
must ask the experts already... [*ahem*aziQ*ahem*TiQ*ahem*]
hehehe...
maybe i should change server? dunnoe la...
depends on my mood...

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do you know that my bedroom is a magical room?
why do i say so?
because eversince i moved in donkey years ago...
i've lost a dozen things in that room!
my earrings..my ringsss..my bag..
all these stuffs dropped on the floor and jz went missing till now...ok..xcept for my bag la..
i tink i misplaced my bag sumwhere... urgh.
i lost my frenship ring 2 days ago...
so weird...i heard it drop...
but i cant find it anywhere on the floor or under my bed!!
sape ntah telan... pfft.
now im left with only one ring... so sianz...

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work have been hell recently...
till its to the point where i cried while complaining to Cheryl...
till to the point where i wanted to tender my resignation letter 24hrs notice...
i feel so dumb...
taken advantage by people whom i trust alot...

i have no say in anyting...
so i see no point in staying...

let them do watever they want...
i couldnt care less anymore...

no mood to work liao lor...
pfft.

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chatting online with him again recently really brought back fond memories...
i tink im developing a crush on him all over again...
which is bad...
urgh.
because i know he only treats me as a good friend and nothing more...
maybe i can cherish him only by far...

if only he knew...

2008-04-15T14:21:00.002+08:00

What About Now (Idol Gives Back Performance) by Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late...

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im soo sick and tired of work....
im sooo dead broke now...
asking for our money is like a virus for the directors...
now we look like beggers for asking...
they should give automatically...
not wait until we asked...
stupid idiots...

cant wait for cold rock icecream and movie date with cher next week...
at least there's sumting to look forward to...

sistaz pon da senyap per...
haiz...

anyhoo...to nisa..
sorry la...we dint know u were suffering at home..
tkde niat pon nk rub it in...haha...
but sayang la u missed all the fun...
take care anyways...

chatting with him...brought back memories...
this is another case of...what if...

This broken heart can still survive..With a touch of your grace.

2008-04-08T00:35:00.004+08:00

hey hey hey...

let me summarise my Bangkok trip and our Fiknatic Picnic...
or shud i say...
let Cheryl summarise for me...
HAHHAAHHAHA..
here's what she said abt bkk...

it sucks when u're ard moody ppl. says:
"i enjoyed myself with shafik & cheryl in bangkok & i didnt wanna come home. MBK rox"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...wth.
ouh yah... went with him also... [only to those i tell, will know whu]
everyting was fine till we reached SG and a few days later lor.
wat a spoiler.

so i shall post up only one foto frm bkk as i havent gotten the camera cable frm my bestie...

an addition... [which is sooo true okayy!!]

i swear i didnt eat leaves, ppl. says:
"2 chinese ladies called cheryl & i "mei nu" while we were watching the croc wrestling show. They were so mesmerised by us that they didnt even pay attention to the crocs AT ALL"

hahahahaha..
i was next to those china ladies...
they looked at us like we're at the exhibitions lor...
so akward... erk.

will upload more pixtures if im not lazy...

last sunday we had a Fiknatic Picnic cum celebrating our March and April berthday babies...
so...its Shad..Tiq..Hira..Shafik..Aziqa and Mal's birthdays...
we made them each blow ONE candle frm the cake..
trust me its not easy..
just like lighting each and one of the [bloody] candles..
it was aziq's bday itself...
so she kena sabo la...
not only her..
her bestie also kena!! haha...kesian anati..

so anyways...
Happy belated birthday to both my darlings...
AziQa and Amalina...

glad u like yur prezzie aziq...
as for mal...
sabar menanti yee...
hehehehe...

so here are my most fav. pichas frm shad's camera..!

all my favourite people...including the one taking the foto la okay? hehehe...

and cher's summary for the picnic was...

it sucks when u're ard moody ppl. says:
"i enjoyed myself with shad, aziq, anati, suriana, tiq, mal, shafik & cheryl picnicing at pasir ris park. The fried rice & garlic bread that cheryl & shafik brought rocked"

HAHAHAHAHHAA...WTH...
praising own food! chetz!

it was fun anyways...

so i shall need another motivation...
another plan/outing to look forward to...
cher said... batam...

woah...
i wish...

till next time then...

2008-03-24T14:06:00.003+08:00

see how happy the gerls were to sabo him!?!? HAHAHAHAH...

the *Surprise* party went along soo smoothly...

all thanks to Cheryl and her super-detailed planning...
well...
even thou a balloon popped so loudly...
he stil dint managed to crack the code or even guess...!!

yay to Cheryl and us!!
u nvr know how nervous me n Su was for Cheryl...
we were like "cepat lah...cepatlah..."...
bcz we knew she planned so long for this...

games were fun because he was sabo-ed thruout!!
hahahahaha...
thanks to Su and Cher for the ideas for the games...

gift-opening session was abit touching lah...
cz that's practically the first time i see him so glee-fully happy...
u know...like a child receiving a toy that he wanted so long?
yes...dats the reaction we got...
so...mission accomplished!!
thanks to Cher's guidance lah... hahaha...

he liked the shades soo much...
kudos to nisa!
and the sistaz for voting which one is nicer..! haha...
soo...all the walking all over town that day was fruitful!!
my now-cacat-feet after all the walking in platforms was all worth it lah....

im glad i went to the party...
cz it has been a while since i laughed so hard and soo much!
truly had fun...

but too bad the sistaz wasnt in full force...
i doubt we're goin to be out again in full force...
tired of asking lah...
sms mahal tau... hehhee...

so anyways...

BANGKOK!!! in ard 24hrs time...

the photo looks like Singapore at night hor?

ouh well...
i'll be away frm 2mrw onwards till the 29th...
i hope i'll have fun!!

sooo...
in case anything happens...
please do forgive me for all my wrongdoings and my sins towards anyone of u...
halalkan makan minum and hutang-hutang ye?
hehe...

take care people!!

2008-03-22T07:49:00.002+08:00

I SWEAR i've lost all mood to blog!
see my last post!!
last mth siaa...
and aziq even told me my blog have a virus.
urgh.
maybe i shud go on Hiatus lah.

so here are the updates since my lats entry.

life have been effing-ly [watever does it means..it jz sounds gd in tis sentence] terrible these past few weeks.

work's hell...as usual..
its the same old...same shit..different smell...

my elder bro have found his *soulmate*...i tink...
he's like on cloud 9 now...
but he've been going out since last week...everyday..non-stop...
and my mum is nagging...
cz "its not nice for a guy and girl to be seen out everyday"..

ouh yah...
bcz of my bro...
my mum nagged at me too!!
wat the hell... pfft.
he's in love...wat business has it got to do with me??
mothertoad.

watever lah.

my bkk's trip in like 3 days time...
and i've yet to pack a single thing!
so nervous can?
i feel sick already.
i hope i can survive my 5 days with him lah...
Cheryl..pls help me enjoy my trip...

lastly...
i've finally done my so-called "secret project"...
asking my darling sistaz for their fav colour...
hahahaha...
but eh... myra...yur blue turned out sumwhat abit grennish seh...
mal punye looked really blue bcoz of her tudung n baju lah! hahaha...

anyways...
it looked lovely...
and im lovin` it...

ok...
i shall go back to work now..
my stomach is like suffering indigestion lah...
i feel like puking...
really...
urgh.

2008-02-14T00:47:00.003+08:00

i must say..

i've lost all mood to blog...

there's so much to blog abt...
but the urge to type it out is just not there...

i wanted to change my blogskin...
but there is no inspiration at all... urgh.

have been busy...
work..driving prac lessons and facebooking! hahahahahaha...
and ouh yah...
going for interviews...

im hoping i'll get the job thou`...

current workplace is jz no hope for me anymore.. :(

anyways...
Happy Bday to my darling sis...anati!!
semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki...

i wanna apologise to my sistaz for not making it to the last outing...
sore eyes spoilt my plans.. pfft.
glad that u gerls had fun...
we meet up again soon okay!? :)

till my next entry den...
i may go on hiatus ar...
:x

2008-01-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

omg.
the full moon right outside the range now is sooo BEAUTIFUL.
it does put a smile on my face seeing it now. :)

althou im working the toopid shift right now.
pfft.

the people changed the perfume spray thingy.
alamak.
im soo sensitive to these overly-nice-scented smells lahhh!!
now im having a headache.
feel like im going to puke anytime.
urgh.

im hungry too :(

-----

cant wait for sunday.
goin to the movies. yay!
finally.
sumting to look forward to in a short span of time.

-----

was my off day yest.
i re-watched "devil beside me".
yes. all 20 episodes.
i cant believe i teared all over again.
sweet show lah. :)
Mike He is HAWT. *cair*

"They kiss again" part 2 frm "ISWAK"...
i hope they'll upload quick...
im getting impatient.
hahaha.

-----

to my darling sistaz...
we shall meet up on 7th feb eh??
Chinese New Year per?!
wear red arhhh! amacammmzzz!!?! HAHAHHAHA.

to my adiks-adiks...
Iffa,aziQa,Mal and anati...
i wish u all the best for yur results this Thursday...
insyallah u gerls will pass with flying colours ok?!
no matter wat...

yur kakaks-kakaks will always be proud of u. :)

same goes for the others whu r taking their results this thurs.

-----

SO WHAT if i love Taufik Batisah...
at least im supporting Local Music.

HAHAHAHHAA.
i lurve it la iffa!
nice one darls!! :)

2008-01-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

i've lost my mood to blog.

Seriously. [dats my fav word nowadays lor]

life have been very stressful recently.
im trying hard..not to get sacked from work.
[cz i found out my boss wanted to sack me last year lor!!pfft.]
and i wanna quit soo much. urgh.

Cathleen..if u r reading this..pls keep this to yurself. thanks.

in need of a new job soon.

-----

mummy have been talking to me on and off lah.
kinda sick of it liao.

this marriage business have seriously taken a toll on me.

i dunnoe what or how to think abt it anymore.

-----

the ex have been utterly helpful-but-annoying recently..
and he almost "killed" me with his EMO attitude.

im so not talking to him till march.
urgh.

so bloody pissed.

-----

to my dearest sis...annisaa...
im so sorry i dint create and whole entry jz for yu on yur bday...

my life aint so colourful lately...

so i wanna wish yu a very much Belated Birthday..!!

im glad yu had fun with yur other frens. :)

as for our sistaz...
we'll try to find a date before the adiks-adiks start school aites?

-----

till next time...

2008-01-14T02:05:00.000+08:00

i simply cant believe how mean my directors can be.

she's sumone that have worked so hard for the company for the past 5 years..
and you cant even show some empathy by at least asking her to stay for a few more months??
instead you wanted her to leave the very next day?!
im so disappointed.

i dunnoe wat attitude to give in my work now.
even if i work very hard..they wont appreciate it.
i am not qualified to entitle to the commission..so why shud i work so hard?

you directors think that admin staff is disposable right..?

you guys shall get yur KARMA one fine day...
wait for it..
seriously.

-----

so work have been mundane and hell and back for me..
dun think i'll enjoy work anymore..other than looking at the cute chubby kids..

i simply cant wait for March to come..
after my trip..
search for another job...
and byeeee!!! hehe.

sooo...
for now...
endure is the word.

-----

i've been watching ISWAK 2..
althou they havent uploaded the full series...
the show is sooo sweet lahh! addictive! urgh.
i hope they'll upload fast enuff... :(

-----

to my darlink Fiknatics...

Happy Belated bday to Fiza-Not-O..! haha.
u and yur legal night tak abis-abis..
we shall do that one fine night.. HAHAHAHA.

as for yur another petik...
Miss Jamilah...aka MinahTJ...
Happy Bday lahhh!!! :)

hope yu gerls have pleasant bdays aite?

-----

end of march...
i beg u...
pls come by fasttt!!!
:(

2008-01-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

Taufik & By Definition ROCKS!

-----

so many to blog abt..
but the urge to blog is missing..

-----

planning for March's trip with Cher is fun yet so exciting.
cant wait for March!
at least sumting to look forward to in life. HAHA.

-----

i feel so hurt.
hurt by people i cherish so much.
sincerely..frankly speaking..
i give up..
and im simply incosolable. :(

2008-01-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Into the night - Carlos Santana ft. Chad Kroeger

1st Verse
Like a gift from the heavens, it was easy to tell,
It was love from above, like it saved me from hell,
She had fire in her soul it was easy to see,
And the devil himself could be pulled out of me,
There were drums in the air as she started to dance,
Every soul in the room keeping time with there hands,
And we sang;

(Chorus)
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And the voices bang like the angels sing,
We;re singing;
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And we danced on into the night,
Ay oh ay oh,
Ay oh ay oh,
And we danced on into the night,

2nd Verse
Like a piece to the puzzle that falls into place,
You could tell how we felt from the look on her face,
She was spinning in circles with the moon in her eyes,
The room left them moving between you and I,
We forgot where we were and we lost track of time,
And we sang to the wind as we danced through the night,
And we sang;

(Chorus)
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And the voices bang like the angels sing,
We;re singing;
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And we danced on into the night,
Ay oh ay oh,
Ay oh ay oh,
And we danced on into the night,
Ay oh ay oh,
Ay oh ay oh,
And we danced on into the night,

(Santana solo)

1st Verse repeated
Like a gift from the heavens, it was easy to tell,
It was love from above, like it saved me from hell,
She had fire in her soul it was easy to see,
And the devil himself could be pulled out of me,
There were drums in the air as she started to dance,
Every soul in the room keeping time with there hands,
And we sang;

(Chorus)
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And the voices bang like the angels sing,
We;re singing;
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And we danced on into the night,
Ay oh ay oh,
Ay oh ay oh,
And we danced on into the night,
(And the voices bang like the angels sing),
Ay oh ay oh,
Ay oh ay oh,
And we danced on into the night,
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
(Ay oh ay oh),
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
(Ay oh ay oh),
Singing ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
(Ay oh ay oh),
And we danced on into the night;

2008-01-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2008!!!!

arghhhh!!!

i simply cant believe a year has just ended and passed by sooo quickly!!

and at 12midnight...
i was OUTSIDE on New Year's EVE!!!

which is VERY RARE in my entire life okayyy!!
ask Cheryl...
i was screaming telling her "IM OUTSIDE!!" HAHAHAHAHA.

thanks to my dear mummy for allowing me to go. :)

----

ouh well..

my 2007 was mainly abit boring i guess...
but it did ended REALLY well...

let me list down wat i did the past whole year..in random order and memory pls!!

- got a new permanent job.. which was gd bt the pay sux.
- bought a new hp.
- went to KL & Genting with Cher,Shafik and Vera
- finally did our Sistaz makeover. thx to kak kQeera & hubby.
- enrolled for my driving license.
- bought my pink psp!
- grew closer to Fiknatics
- family vacation to KL (again).
- Izinkan ku pergi became my fav song ever!
- painted my room!
- went out with Fiknatics during Raya.
- did soooo many online-shopping!!
- Taufik's 26th Retro Bday Bash!
- received sooo many prezzies for Christmas!!
- got invited to join *toot!* HAHA. ok. nvm.
- Sistaz Chalet @ Sentosa.
- Christmas Party [work and Fiknatics]
- DHL-Balloon-ing!! thx to Cheryl.
- Countdown @ VivoCity. New Year 2008.

eh..i think i missed out alot lar..
but these are the main ones that i can remember..
i have really bad memory i tell u.

i left out the bad memories..
like the constant heartbreaks...jz its a pain to remember.
so lets jz forget them.

eitherways...
now..my life practically revolves my Fiknatics Family.
and i shall nvr regret it. Ever.

----

sooo... what did i do on New Year's Eve?!?

well...
Cher suggested that we shud have a fine dinner to end off the year 2007..
which was a great idea...
so she suggested Breeks at Harbourfront Centre.

i was reluctant lar. cz im bad at fine-dining. HAHA.
but wat the hell...
its dinner! jz eat larh!! HAHAHAHA.

supposed to meet at 7pm.
but the rest was late.
saw Raz first and we went in Breeks to get our table.
and we chatted abt the site. [its a mess!!]

anyways..while chatting..we got distracted like sooo many times...
why?? cz the staff and crew kept saying loudly
"Welcome to Breeks!" & "Thanks for coming..see you again!" like a dozen times.
HAHAHAHA. so distracting can! everytime they said that..we stopped talking. haha.

anyhoos..
Cher,Shafik & Su arrived and we started ordering our food..
our 1st waitress looked like Jaclyn Victor lor!! HAHAHA.
we kinda called her [among ourselves only] Jac.
but her service was soo mediacore.

Cher got her main course UN-fashionably LATE.
Raz did not get his side-dish. [which i forgot wat]

ouh..
Raz saw Joakim..
and Joakim came in with the other celebs..
and they sat next to our table..
so exciting! HAHA.

anyways..
Jac got reprimanded by the manager.
so we got another waitress to serve us.
a Senior this time!
she's cool!!
she made us so excited each time. HAHA.
cz we were ordering dessert.
we ordered.. MASSIVE ATTACK!!
HAHAHAA. so fun!

so...
after taking pichas of practically everyting...
we decided to make a move to the countdown event..
which anyways...
we took 2hrs in total..
Joakim came in after us..but they left before us lor! HAHA.

on the way to Vivo..
Cher "dragged" us to Espirit.. HAHA.
her all-time fav store lor.

den she and Raz did a bit of shopping before the new year!!
haha.

and finally we proceeded to Vivo.
to our surprise..
there's a VERY idiotic lonnngggg Queue.
so toopid lorr!!
urgh.

and right in front of us was...
Iskandar Shah and Al-Farahizah Awangit! [dunno if the spelling is right la]
its a turn-off lor seeing them so mushy together. erk!
dating or not? only God knows.

when we finally got to go in...
we were ushered to the Mosh Pit..althou we have seat tix!!
cz the Seating area were packed.
toopid right?!

Shanns and family have reserved for us seats lorr!!
Thanks sooo much to them...!!

we made an illegal u-turn and rushed up the stairs to Shanns and family. HAHA.

overall Countdown was great!!

Especially...
performances by Taufik Batisah & By Definition lorrr!!!
OMG! im sooo in lurrrvee with them larhh!!
can By Def pls hav their own concert soon?!

going home part was safe.
thanks to Shanns and family again!
they are the coolest family ever lah! :D

and so..
my 2007 ended and 2008 began just like that!!
HAHA.
but im glad my 2007 ended really smoothly... :)

new year resolution?
errr...
same like every year lor.
and ouh!
i wanna donate blood this year! HAHA.

so darlings...
may you guys have a pleasant year ahead. :)

2007-12-30T07:40:00.000+08:00

tb.net got hacked.
im pissed.

whu's the bloody hacker whu got sooo much time to do all these??
too free is it?!

urgh.

hope tb.net will get back in operation soon!!

its all OKAY now! :D

----

chalet with sistaz was indeed a mixed feelings outing overall.

room was small.
well..wat could we expect right?
there's 8 of us! 6 sleptover.

1st day
video frm Bash was played.
had fun laughing.

food from ezb was okay i guess.
i dint eat much cz i was full frm Coke gas lor!

Million thanks to Shad for bbq-ing.
sorry i dint help. :x

guests (thanksss u guys!!) came.

games were played.
but i guess if there were more people..it wld be more fun. :(

to our guests:
sorry if i was not a good host to yu guys.

2nd day
everyone kinda woke up at 10am.
but me and shad slept a bit more cz we dint slp much the night before.

adiks-adiks (iffa & mal) were glued to their malay novels.
heran aku!

den we had our usual..
whu gets to use the bathroom first?!
haha.

ate cup noodles for breakfast.

finished eating at 12pm.
den its off to explore Sentosa!!!

nisa suggested Miniture Golf. -.-"
its fun..but i can do that everyday lor! haha.

anyways..
the rest xcept me n shad went for that History thingy.. (i forgot the name!erk!)
so while they were gone..which took more den half an hr!! ish..ish..
me & shad walked ard the gift shops and we chatted and gossiped abt the tourists ard us.
HAHA. sempat gossip kan!

after that,we searched for the Topless-bus!! (sound so obsence can?!HAHA.)
gave up when we saw a never-ending Q for the bus.

so it was off to Pahlawan Beach.
crossed over the "bridge". fun sak!
had our usual cam-whoring session.

den we just HAD to squeeze to take the tram.
toopid.
cz i was in the outer side lor!!
had to hoist myself up. so painful seh. :(
the sistaz had fun laughing at me thou.
ingat aku clown eh? pfft.

muke cramp sak!
takpe. sabar aje. :x

den its Skyride and Luge!!!
OMG! so fun!

Luge wasnt that fun cz shad and iffa had their own race..
mira was accompanying her sis at the back..

and i was left in the middle not knowing whu to race larr!!
pfft.

wished cheryl was there.
so i can race with her. HAHA.

my parents and lil sis came.
wasnt that shocked la. cz i know my mum.
HAHA.

den it was back to the chalet.
ate cup noodles (again) for dinner.
some were complaining.
but not for me.
im a cup-noodle lover please!! HAHHAHA.

den its off to sit at the beach and jz chill.
drank our sparkling apple juice.

and back to Skyride and Luge.
night view this time!

den we played sparklers!

Sparkling day i tell u..HAHA.

den we jz chilled by the poolside.

and had my henna done by 2 different people..shad n nisa.
outcome..?
my hands were like a drawing paper for them.
but it was fun!

sleeping part was hilarious.
i could die laughing..cz i was almost breathless.
the aircon was ridiculously freezing.

sleeping early was never an option for me.
haha.

laughter was all over.every day.every night.

Overall Conclusion: FUN! haha.

----

reached home at 1pm.

and my block jz had to do the re-wiring.
so no electricity till 5pm!!!!

i slept.
it was very hot sia.

woke up at 5pm. -.-"
ate abit.

and got ready to go to Raz's place for
Fiknatic's Christmas Party cum Post-Bash Gathering!!

met TiQ,Suriana,Surizah + Bf and aziQa at ang mo kio mrt.

i think i was dressed wrongly for the theme!!
HAHAHAHA.
watever la.

conversation in the kitchen while preparing the food was so PG sia!
HAHAHAHA.

food were superb!!
all courtesy frm Cheryl.
loved her spaghetti and pizza!!

aziQ's mum's Shepherd's pie also nice..
(Shepherd!!!! must eat!! haha. if u watch GA..u shud know why)

games were hilarious.
we went crazy screaming at every single thing lor. haha.

my cutie group!! with our self-made christmas tree.
even thou` we lost..i tink our tree/ornaments RAWKS! HAHA.

other then that..

Raz... u make a good host for a party. :)

----

back to reality.
back to work.

but i still get to have fun at night!!

met Cheryl and Shafik at LJS Bugis.
sorry im late!! :x

den its to our mission...

DHL Balloon-inggg!!!

OMG!! like finally lorrr...
HAHAHAHA.

we (mainly cheryl and me) were screaming like nobody's business.
Shafik was only... coolness here..coolness there..every single time.
maintain composure eh!? HAHAHA.

view at night was breathtaking.

after the ride..
we went to BHG cz cheryl need to shop for her daddy's bday prezzie.

den we headed to AMK Hub to watch 'Mission: Sex Control'..
so funny sia the showw!!

me n cheryl laughed till i tink we are going to have asthmatic attack anytime soon.
erk..

many many thanks to Cheryl...
seriously...

love yu so much lahh! :D

----

my entries all no pichas eh?
cz i havent gotten any yet.
and im lazy to edit and post up.
wait long-long la eh..

Im in a very GOOD MOOD!
so i've editted pichas!!
weee~~!!

----

anyways...
WELCOME BACK HOME MAL!!!!

i assume u were reluctant to leave Korea kann!!
hehehe.
did u get to meet Bi?!!
go fullhouse?

OMG!!
i read yur entries and im already so excited for u...
post quickly okayy!!

----

as for me...
now..
how to convince my mummy to let me go to the Countdown party!?!

arghhhh!! :(

my mummy allowed me to go to the Countdown party!!!
OMG!!
SOO SHOCKING!!

i lurrrvee my mummy sooo muchh!!

till next time then...

Happy New Year in advanced people!!!

2007-12-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

OMG.
im lagging for so many days.

firstly...
a Belated Salam Aidiladha to all my Muslim friends...

my hari raya was spent working first thing in the morning...
den at home all day after that...
cz i got to work full shift the next day.
how sucky.

den its Chirstmas-y mood at work...
i was like working in the Presents counter ok?

our students kept giving us presents...

and soo...
when i came to work on Sunday afternoon...
i was greeted with thiss!!

best kannn!!!
i loved that Santa in the middle...
but my collegue took it already...CHETZ!
sibuk jek.

----

had my ex-ite classmates' gathering on Chirstmas Eve.
cz my ex was in town.. [read:he's my ex-classmate too ok!]
planned to meet at Changi Airport..
but i went to my office to drop off presents first.

den met my ex at Northpt..
he was fetching me with his car..

got a lil pissed at him and my friend.
cz i got tricked lor. urgh.
idiotic guys.
so i was kinda silent the whole journey to T2.
its was indeed akward i tell u.
he even commented that im still the same...
stil the same old Diana whu's very short-tempered.
PFFT.
but i felt bad for not talking to him after that.
erk.

and my day got abit worst.
met my "long-lost-sista"..
seemed ions since i last met her.
her life story is enough to make me blow up.
so i simply refused to talk to her.
i know.
its rude of me.
but..wat the heck!
if i dun like...i'll do wat i want.

but i feel kinda bad also...
urgh.

why must she change into a person i no longer know anymore?!

utterly disappointed.

chatted with my bro..her bf too..
saw that he almost cried.
i really pity him.

why must he get himself in such a situation...

love is great...
but u must know yur limitations...my dear bro...

i wish u all the best regardless..
u have all my support okay!

other den dat...
meeting the rest was laughter all over.

i went home on my own by bus coz i wouldnt want to impose on my ex anymore.
he already had to send my 3 other frens back to Tampines.
and i live smack (almost) at the end of Singapore.
althou i knew he badly wanted to send me home..
i jz refused.

sorry my dear. Oops!

so here are the pictures...

group picha!

my close-set friend for the past 7 years and still counting.

my bro whom i hope will wake up and smell the roses!! HAHA.

----

have been editting the bash vid over and over...
til im sick of watching the whole thing...

finally im done and all set.

one thing i was touched abt Taufik's words was wen he mentioned abt his mum...
abt how we should cherish our mum while they r still alive...

i remembered while i was taking the vid at that very moment...
my mind was on my mummy...

i really cant imagine what i'll do wifout my mummy...
i tink my life will be in a mess before i can get up again...
erk...

Oh God...
please take my life before hers...

i dun tink i can live with the fact that any of my loved one will be gone... :(

----

soooo...
a few more hours til my Sistaz chalet cum BBQ...
so excited yet nervous...
cz i've not packed anything yet! HAHAHA.

ouh well...
i'll be gone frm 26th till 28th anyways...

or maybe...
my next entry will be in the new year...

if i'll ever lag again...
let me wish everyone...

an advanced...
Happy 2008 new year!!

toodles~

2007-12-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

i had so much to blog abt yesterday lor.
but recently...
i think i have short-term memory loss.
erkkk!!

----

soo...
anyhoooss...

HADY did SINGAPORE PROUD!!!
wooo hooo!!
and he sang Taufik's song..."Berserah"...
[edit] im so lovin` his final performance after the results. [/edit]
tak sia-sia aku vote kan! hehe.

yah..yah..
its a big hoo-haa that he won...
i know...
his vocals wasnt as great as the rest of the other idols..
dah rezeki dia...
just accept the fact lah! duhz!
sape suro korang tak vote hard enough?
hehe.

Congratulations to Hady Mirza...
our 2nd Singapore Idol...
[edit] and also our 1ST ASIAN IDOL... [/edit]

and also to the HapyHadys larrr!!
dah abis pengsan? hehe.

----

on Sunday Morning was the event that all the Fiknatics have been waiting for...
wat event was it??

Taufik's 26th Birthday RETRO BASH!!!
woo hooo!!!

the whole event was a BLAST!!
a successful event indeed.

well..
except for the last part...
everyone jz disregarded the fact that "you are not supposed to take a solo pic with Taufik" ...
nasib korang baik...Minmin takde tau...haha.

aku ckp org...
aku pon sama! haha.
eh! i dint want to take solo pic wif him tau!
Sharon dragged me in...haha.

anyways...
loved the emcees... [ahem!ahem! my darling sistaz was one of them laahh!!]
so proud of u aziQ!!!
simply loved yur *changing-lightbulb* dance la... HAHAHAH.
Surizah was superb as always...

althou my right arm is still aching till now for holding the camera for 3hrs straight.
im still glad i recorded it all on tape!
haha.

the tb.net team was sporting as usual...
u guys rock!!!

so now...a few pictures...
the rest...
u'll have to wait for Tb.net to upload...
and we've also uploaded ours at our Sistaz site...
so if u have our link...and is in our friends' list...
u can view it...
cz i've set it to private. :)
Sorry la..we're not allowed to let others view it ok.

all these are frm Nisa's camera...
now...we'll wait the photos frm shad's camera!

as for my vid...
if u are invited to our bbq...
be there...
hehehehe.

----

on sunday night...
its my company's Xmas party...at my boss's home...

all the ang mohs went crazy...
all drunk like noboby's business...
every food was soaked in alcohol...

so i jz drank Sprite all the way...
haha.

its fun anyways.. haha.

----

ok...
i shud go get ready now..
wanna go watch Alvins and the Chipmunks with my lil sis!!

till my next entry...
toodles~

2007-12-16T00:49:00.000+08:00

frankly speaking..

Hady gave a disappointing performance.

i mean...why dint he sang his own English song??
there's 'freedom'...'you gave me wings'...?!

urgh.

malay song: Berserah...
i told myself...no comparing plss!
anyhoos...
he sounded okay...
althou im sooo tempted to compare.
but noooo....i cannot.

Phillipines's Mau was great.
Malaysian's Jac was awesome.
Indonesian's Mike was good too!

urgh.

i dun care....
i must vote for Hady.
so should you!!

omg.
patriotic-ism moment.HAHA.

haiz.
even if Hady dint win...
no worries...
he'll always be Singapore's Idol... :)

anyways..
Peter Pan n Agnes Monica 2mrw!!!

TAUFIK BATISAH 2mrww!!!
okay.
i realised one of the reasons WHY taufik dint represent Singapore...
to spend his bday with us?? [slow kan akuuu!!]
alamakkk.... suuuuuweeetttt nyerrrr....
bertambah sayang la nampaknyer kite padanyer...
HAHAHAHAHAAHA.

i dun tink i can watch Asian Idol 2mrw...
cz i'll be at my boss's hse for our Xmas party...
urgh.
spoiler.

ouhh!!
im getting more presents larr!
so great gitu.
HAHA.
i dun celebrate christmas...but i lurve the presents cann?!
my instructors pampering us with chocs!!
i likeee~~!!
hahaha.

ok lah.
i better slp.
meeting my darlings early 2mrw morning!

2007-12-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! just how great is thatt!!

okok...not christmas la...i dun celebrate chirstmas la hokay!!

but see the presentss!!!

whu doesnt love presents!?! tell me?!

me n my 3 other collegues are having this *exchange gifts* session soon...

aiyah..jz to fill up the space under the cutesy christmas tree.. HAHA.

we can only open up the prezzies on 23rd lorrr...!! weee~~~!!!

----

oouuhhh...

the BIG-IN-THING recently [other den the SEA games and the Bash la ok!]

is indeed the Asian Idols lor...

had this convo with my mummy a few days back...

we chatted in malay...so i translate la ok?? hehe.

me: ouhh! Hady's in Asian Idol... [we're watching tv..and the advert came out]

me: dunnoe can win or not...alot of people seemed to say Taufik is better.. [all frm the radio la okayy!!nt me]

mummy: alaa...if all Singaporeans vote alot...sure can win la...Hady's representing Singapore wat?! so we shud support him no matter wat...
me: but i see the Indonesian Idol's vocal damn good lor...tough competition...

mummy: so are you voting for him or not?
me: err... dunnoe leh... i've never voted for any of the singapore idols frm Season 2 before.

mummy: wat only!! we shud support Singapore! im going to vote once. [HAHA.so cute can!]

me: i'll see how lar...
mummy: last time u say...we shud vote and not jz say Singapore cannot win... [true lor..]

ok...i know i sounded abit pessimistic in the convo...

but my mummy woke me up laaa...

and guess wat? my mummy is actually Jonathan's fan tau! haha. cute kan!

but we love Singapore la...

so people!! vote for Hady lorrr...!!!

no matter you support for Taufik ke..Jonathan ke..Sly ke...

just vote for Hady this time cz he's representing for Singapore daym it! haha.

[taken frm HapyHady's email]
Here's the voting format for ASIAN IDOL:

Each voter in every country has to vote for 2 Idols within each SMS.
The voter cannot vote for the same Idol twice in the same SMS.

Singapore :

SMS @ Voteword 1 Voteword 2 to 43657

For example: Type 'SIN VIET' and send it to 43657

Country Shortcodes for SMS Voting

India : 52525
Indonesia : 9288
Malaysia : 33776
Philippines : 2959
Singapore : 43657
Vietnam : 4365

Country Official Votewords

India : INDIA
Indonesia : INDO
Malaysia : MAL
Philippines : PHIL
Singapore : SIN
Vietnam : VIET

*Note:
Votewords are not case-sensitive, but please use UPPER CASE for
consistency of communication.

Voting Start Time:

The lines for voting will be open from the beginning of the Performance
Show on December 15, 2007 (all except Vietnam).

Voting End Time:

The lines for voting will close at the end of Segment 8 (out of 10) of
the Results Show on December 16, 2007 (approximately 90 minutes into
the show).

(Total approx 25.5 hours voting period per country)

REMEMBER:

DO NOT VOTE TILL THE LINES ARE DECLARED OPEN!

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Bash is in 2 days time...
i cant wait!!
but...
now my boss having a Xmas party at his home on Sunday lor...
mothertoad btol...
so lazy to meet boss on my Leave laarrr!!
see how la...maybe i'll drop by after the bash or sumting.
haiz.

----

i feel sick.
im tired.
i want to watch Alvin and the Chipmunkss!!
and all the other movies!!
but im broke.
HAHA.

----

ooohhh ohhh...!!
one last thing...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL..!!!

may you be blessed with health and happiness always!!
thanks sooo much for being a great friend and my bitching partner.
lurve yu loads!!
*Muackz!*

----

till next time lar.

toodless~

2007-12-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

i FINALLY got the tix by mail..!!
woo hoo~!!

aiyah...i nvr check the mailbox mah...
so i've to wait for my dad or elder bro to pass my mailss..hehe.

im 75% done with the so-called prezzie...
suddenly i see my piece not-so-nice-at-all lorr!!
pfft.

----

i simply do not understand how a person can stop being friends...
jz because you've stopped supporting an artiste...

not trying to be rude..sacarstic or some sort...

just a fact...

you support an artiste.
you became a fan.
you met other fans.
you became friends.

yes..you BECAME friends.

haha.
i dunnoe la.
i jz cherish my circle of friends for now.

even if u've stopped supporting OR have been missing in action for a long long time..
i'll still be your friend.
maybe im not that near..
but im still somewhere near yur circle of friends lah! hehe.

----

both my ex-sweethearts frm my past (read: sec sch & ite days) are back into my life!
OMG.
within a week somemore.
well...one confessed his feelings.. [omg! wth!!]

one told me that he wanna be friends again..
we've always been friends lorr!!
only that you've stopped contacting me since you have a gf watt!!
chetz!

im jz soo past that stage lah.
im so drained out.
i dun wanna fall in love cz i dun wanna fall out of it. [get it?? haha]

WHAT-ever lah.
come what may then..

2007-12-10T00:53:00.000+08:00

heyyy!!!

HAPPY 26th BURSTDAYYY TAUFIK BATISAH !!!

we'll see you soon enuff aites!
we = Fiknatics la okay! hehehe..

----

im tired of going to the toilet to pee..
but i have to endure..
i HAVE to lose weight!!
urgh.
:(

2007-12-05T08:38:00.000+08:00

OMG! my whole back is aching sooooo muchhh!!

all thanks to the so-called "Aroma FULL body massage" me and bestie went to yesterday lorr!!

its not even full body...half-body in fact!

and now..i feel like my whole back is bruised.

and im in freaking painnn!!

date with bestie was splendid as usual.

met her at Plaza Singapura after i did my errands at Toa Payoh and she went for her dental appt at Wisma.

afterwhich we went to Vivo..that VERY FREEZING COLD shopping centre!

ate our lunch at Banquet...

Slice Fish soup is heavenly.

entry half-way done on 05.12.07
till i got a blogger's block when my boss came in.HAHA.
----

now for my latest entry.

my back still hurts anyway. urgh.

----

Shopping with the girls at Bugis on Thursday night was super fun!
got my top for Retro Bash.

im all set for the bash arh!! hehe
Thanks to cheryl for yur gift hor. :)

train ride home with TiQ n cher was funny lor.
and all the tongue twisters.
simply impossible.

----

omg! there's a lil kid outside my workplace jumping ard like monkey jz to entertain me.
SO FUNNY CAN! hahahahaha.
so random.
HAHA.

----

yesterday i went for my driving prac.
my first time taking the 5.55pm slot.
i was bloody nervous.
its after office hours mind yu!!
traffic will be super jammed and people are bound to be super impatient.
esp. for learner drivers like me. urgh.
i was scared so i took extra expense so as to book my fav. instructor..Mr. Chua!!
mainly because my last instructor was super strict and scary. haha. too much pressure la. scary.

so when the time came...
Mr. Chua saw me and asked..."eh!! why u book meee??"
my thinking was.."pfft. he dun like me or wat??!"
and he continued.."i just got a complaint and u booked me..funny la u."
HAHAHAHA.

he received a complaint frm one of the trainees lorrr..!
she (a teacher) complained that he was too naggy..long-winded and not much learning.
chetz!! ade ke patott!!

my reply to him was... "my last instructor was scary."
he laughed and said that i shud meet more instructors...
i know that...
but i need someone that im comfortable with when im driving...
i cannot drive well when im pressured.
in fact...i cannot do anyting well if im pressured!!
i hate pressure.

and my instructor knew me too well.

so for the whole 2 hours we drove outside.
traffic was ridiculously bad.
i had my first near-death experience.
was supposed to change to the left lane...
thought the lorry was kind enough to give way to me..
but he was bloody rude and impatient that he sped up and honked..
and my instructor quickly turned my steering wheel to the right..
and i turned too much and nearly hit the taxi next to our car..
was in shock sia!

u would expect the instructor to nag and scold u...
but not Mr. Chua.
he simply told me what i did wrong and blame the bloody lorry driver for being idiotically impatient!!
i hate changing lanes. HAHA.

but of course there are times where he did scold me.
but not to extent of me feeling really bad or stupid of myself.

he'll scold me like...
why u so slow? speed up!
seelah! u made the bus driver angry..u cannot make up yu mind..wanna stop or wanna go..
see!..all drivers overtake u... haha.

his favourite line...
eh! why u jam-break? i'll puke u know.
HAHAHAHA.

either ways...
i hope my next instructor is nice as him...
cz on my next lesson...he'll be in bangkok.. pfft!
and he even told me he might resign next year...
wait till i pass lehh den quit!! aiyoo...

i truly dint regret spending the xtra money on booking him...
my father paid anyway..
HAHA.

----

im addicted to Facebook.
toopid angmoh!
all HIS fault!!
pfft.

----

chalet.
adiks-adiks all excited.
same goes for kakaks-kakaks.
hope people can make it.
*wishing hard*

----

did you know?
i was listening to Suria FM...a malaysian radio station the whole afternoon till night...
and its like Taufik Galore sehhh!!
Taufik's songs was being played so many times.
and also Imran Ajmain and Alif Aziz's songs!!
Singapore songs galore...
simply greatt..!
i likeee~!!

----

till next time dennn!!

2007-12-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

work is indeed...errr... nothing... yeah...i did nothing!
except answering calls and entertaining enquiries...
other than that... i was practically surfing the net lor! haha.
its monday!! all my 5 instructors were off on mondays...
except for that head instructor la..
but he was the one that told me to close at 8pm!
haha.
i think he's also bored cz he was hitting balls...
for the 1st time eversince i worked there...i saw him hitting balls...HAHA.

but i closed off at 8.30pm coz my other boss came in and asking me to do some work for him.
well...i managed to finish it off by 8.30..hehe...

called home..daddy n elder bro was super reluctant to fetch me frm work...
so i got pissed and walked home.
bought sushi and keropok lekor frm the pasar malam.
its amazing at how i can crave for so much food at one time!!
urgh.
i sooo must cut down lorrr...

----

i've told my mum of my intention of going to Bangkok next year...
FINALLY sakkk...i jz blurted it out...out of the blue..no head..no tail...HAHA.

but i left out the "when" part...

and as i expected my mum would react...
she got worked up...pfft.
asking me with whu...
so i said...its the same friends that i went to KL with...

then she said...
"i'll think abt it first"...

arghhhhh!!!

i jz told her that i wanted to go Bangkok soooo much...
its not like our family will ever go to Bangkok...

last time...
i begged my parents so we can go KL for our holiday...
but our family reached KL only after i went there twice with my friends!!

bingit kann! urgh.

well...i jz hope she'll let me go...

----

meeting bestie 2mrw...
jz to chill again...
and windowshop too...

----

i miss my bitching partner..!!
come home quick!!
after yu settle things over there ok??

2007-12-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

the past 2 days have been super windy!
its not like i hate it lar..
its jz dat my hair's all ruined lorrr...
urgh.
bad hair daysss.

----

met up with bestie jz now.
jz to chill out.
cz i miss-ed my Berry'd Treasure frm KOPIBEAN! haha.
met up at amk hub.
supposed to go windowshopping for my retro outfit..
but it ended up with both of us buying pants!
urgh.
totally weak resistance.
bought 2 pants and a wallet!
haha.
finally..a purse.
but i forsee that im going to buy another one in future.HAHA.

meeting bestie again tis tuesday.
wan's supposed to join us.
but her own family comes first.
HAIZ. wasted.
if not we wld have sing out hearts out @ our karaoke plan! pfft.

knape la kau kawin cepat sgtt!!
Oops! sorry.ok..my bad! hehe.
aku n niza rindu kau la bebbb!! :(

had fun with bestie jz now.
she's jz my crazy bitch la.

and she's super excited abt me looking for my retro outfit.
HAHA. siao.

----

my bitching partner sms-ed me.
she've reached her holiday destination safely.
and busy shopping safely.
urgh.pfft.
im jealous! haha.
okok.
she TOTALLY deserved the holiday la okay?!
she worked soooo blardy hard.
so she deserves this break.

jz make sure u'll be back by tuesday!!
we have a date! haha.
miss ya!

----

work's simply crazyy today..
finally received our pay cheque..after so much asking n msging.
pfft.
toopid ang-mohs!

i wanna go up the DHL balloon by end of this yr!!
cz by next yr..it'll be gone lorr..
maybe i shud go up with the crazy angmohs? haha.
a special singapore trip for them?
hmmm...
gd idea.
shud implement it to my boss! hehe.
so they'll pay for the ride? HAHAHAHAHA.

----

maybe i shud go to slp now.
cz im bored.
urgh.

2007-11-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

my bitching partner is back!
woo hoo~!!

had fun chatting with her...untill her msn hung lar.. haha.

im so glad i found sumone i can chat abt anything under the sun with!

one more night till she's going for her holidays...

urgh. im jealous please.

---

work's ok so far. Xcept for the cheque part.

all 3 bosses are such ASS-es for delaying our cheque YET again.

---

Facebook is still confusing for me.

but im having fun poking and throwing animals at people! HAHA.
esp. my instructors at work. HAHAHAHAA.
they are a crazy bunch of guys i tell u.

---

i wanna watch Enchanted again pls!
HAHA. i miss Patrick Dempsey. ;)

---

Taufik's Bash.
I think im more excited abt wat im going to wear then thinking abt wat to get for him for his bday.
i doubt im getting him anything this year.
im saving for my Bangkok trip (which i hope i can go). HAHA.
but den again..see how lar. HAHAHA.

---

Sistaz Chalet.
aziq say mayb anati dun wanna/cannot go.
urgh.

my dear anati...
the MAIN purpose i organized the chalet at Sentosa is because you stated you wanted to spend a day in Sentosa in yur wishlist.
if u r not coming.
then it defeats all purpose right?

but den again.
if u gerls dun wanna come..so be it.
i dun wanna convince/force/beg for people to come anymore.

all i know im going to have fun there.
come and join me or jz leave okay?!

---

Cathleen!
sms me if u read tis msg. HAHA.
u random-emo-girl.
HAHA.

---

today's entry all jumble-d up.
cz that's what my state of mind is right now.

---

i miss him.
whu is he?
only GOD knows.

2007-11-28T02:48:00.000+08:00

Motorola Q9H

after reading about this cool Motorola Q9H in Nuffnang...
i wish i can ~~have~~ win it.

with the Motorola Q9H...
you can surf the internet...
msn chat with your friends and even check yur work or personal emails.
okok...i know other phones can do all that too...

but..
u can even do your work in it!!
Microsoft Office is in it lor.
imagine doing powerpoint in your hp...
how cool is that?!

u can watch music videos frm it too...

its just like yur mp4,pc and hp all in one! haha.

i may be a Nokia lover...
but it doesnt hurt to try out a new phone right?
change is indeed the only constant thing in this world.

wouldnt it be cool to check my emails even if i'll be at the Sentosa's beach next mth?!
hehe.

2007-11-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

Enchanted / McDreamy "date" was great.
Patrick Dempsey's eyes are Dreamy as usual.
watched him again on G.A jz now.
i cried seh!
so emo pls~! urgh.

someone pissed me off real bad.
pfft.

--- start of story ---

i kept my cool at first.
but
he insulted me again and again.

he went over the line and langgar-ed my wire.
SERIOUSLY.

first he reprimanded me the moment i voiced out my opinion.
(which he kept asking me for! "what's yur opinion on this?" mothertoad lar!)
yea. if u were going to call me just to scold me...then there's no point in us continuing the conversation.

he dint even gave me a chance to talk afterwards.
so,i hung up and let him be.

i thought he would cool down the next day..but i was proved wrong.

then i received an sms the next morning.. "This is why people like you never get the right guys."

people would have thought i would retaliated after receiving such sms?

but noooo...i still kept my cool. my reply was.. "Thanks."

and so he was still not happy with me, so he replied.. "etc...you are the same like all the other minahs...etc"

i read.i ignored.

after a few hours later he msged again... "Typical Minah Mindset - YOU"

by then my blood is already boiling. im a very short-tempered person mind u!! but i still kept my cool lor~!!!

i waited for my collegue to leave for the day at 5pm and i called him the moment my collegue stepped out.

i SERIOUSLY gave him a very BIG PIECE of my mind!
i dint even gave him a chance to speak lor...haha. padan muke.

i think watever i said woke him up abit..
coz he called me later that night...

by then i've deleted all his numbers...
and i never memorised his number lar pls!

so i dint know it was him...
and i just answered his call...

upon hearing his voice...
my blood boils yet again.

i asked him wat the hell he wants from me now...
and he still dare to tell me to cool it and be professional.
asking me what is it that i hate so much abt him!!

i was just...couldnt be bothered by him anymore.
so i told him i was busy at work and hung up.

Just because...
you are a good-looking Pakistani/Malay guy...
a guy which a very good academic background...

THAT

does not give you the right to insult me...
does not give you the right to wish and be happy abt other peoples' downfall...

you can hate all the mats and minahs all you want...
you can rant abt them all you want...

BUT..FYI

i am NOTHING like them.
so do NOT talk like as if you know me very well.
you may THINK you know me...but the fact is you do not.

So Ferkhan...
you can go and live your life as an arrogant jerk for all i care.
and please la...
jangan asyik ingat all the malay girls like you just because you talk to them.

be sensitive and humble abit seriously won't kill you.

--- end of story ---

so i was kinda sooo pissed off at him that i did something to myself that i dint do for a very long time.
was relieved after that.

my current work situation have taught me so many things.
including venting your anger on people and voicing out your views.
HAHAHA.
work is Same.Shit.Different.Smell..

i think i need anger management. HAHA.

cheryl was offline for the past 2 days.
i think her work is killing her softly lar.
i miss my bitching partner pls!
i dunnoe how to survive during her holiday to KL in the next few days.
URGH.
girl..u better come online while u r busy holiday-ing hor!
cant wait for our shopping trip soon! haha.

random:
did yu know that S.O.S does not stand for Save.Our.Ship?!?!
i just got to know it after chatting wif my bro JJ. HAHA.

2007-11-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

dare to take the test?

haha. all the best!

one more day for the date with McDreamy!!
woo hooo~!!

2007-11-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

sneezing non-stop is truly tiring.
sick since yesterday night..

planned n wanted to leave work early..
but collegue simply ignored the fact that im sick..

she jz commented... "eh..u got flu ar?"

.PFFT.
isnt it blardy obvious?!
do u need me to sneeze at yur face?
haha. ok..that's mean.

forget it..
in the end, i left the office at 2.30pm..

sumone gave me a surprise call after receiving an email frm yurs truly.
hehe.
thanks for the call! :)
truly brighten up my day abit.

-- let's sidetrack abit --

planning is indeed a very difficult job to do.
especially when the group of friends is large.

frankly speaking..

i love planning..
especially when everything went well,smoothly and as planned.

but.

if the whole plan is going basically no-where..
its frustrating and annoying to be the organizer.

it defeats the whole purpose if i were to plan sumting and everyone keep saying...
"maybe i cannot make it"...

i understand its beyond our control that other people also have other commitments..

did yu ever consider if i have other commitments too?

well..i dunnoe...

they may say...
"sape yg suro kau susah-susah plan? tkde org pakse kau plan ape?"...

yes..i know that...

maybe its just me...
i treasure my friendships too much...
i lurve seeing everyone together...
having so much fun...
and i try not to leave anyone behind...

being ignored is much more terrible than being forgotten..

but friends keep taking advantage of me...

and im starting to get sick of it...

so i would like to step back frm organizing anymore outings for any of my friends...
its tiring and exhausting...
not to mention..
heartbreaking...

emo sak! haha.

so if u think u cannot make it to any of the outings or events or watever-nots...
its up to u..
im done trying to accomodate to everyone's whim..

sms pon duit tau.

an advice thou..

u shud say..
"i'll try to make it"... not... "maybe i cant make it"...
its much nicer for the ears to hear...

well...
at least u tried...

ps: if u think im talking abt YOU... think again...are YOU my only friend?
so please do yurself and myself a favour.. stop assuming.

-- end of sidetrack --

him: my name is RAIN..
me: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! *melted*

im so happy to pass by any watson or guardian..
bcoz they have Rain's picha all over the place!! hahaha.
even the double-decker SBS bus have it lahh!!
awwww....
i simply lurve Singapore!! HAHAHAHA..

omg.
so random.

2007-11-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

finally its my off day 2mrw and i have a sore throat.
haiz.

i've so much to get done 2mrw.

driving lesson at 8.10pm!
im egg-cited yet scared all over again.urgh.
may the instructor i'll get isnt sumone whu'll make me nervous.

Saturday met my darlings yet again!
but tis time wifout aziQ n anati.
seems sooo difficult to get everyone gather together nowadays.
hmmmm.

work was okay the past few days.
my office is already in the christmas-y mood.
one of my boss bought a mini-christmas tree and im excited!
he decorated the office too!
n its only November.haha.

after work i met iffa.
met the rest at Tampines.
for Taufik's one n only auto-session in Singapore at Eastpoint.
chetz! asyik2 east. bluekz! ;p

for the very first time...
i did not *really* scream like i used to when i saw Taufik.

for the very first time...
i enjoyed his performance live wifout taking any videos.
last time, i have this tendency to take vids so i can watch it again at home.

for the very first time...
i was not *really* nervous when i met him to autograph my album.
usually, aku mengigil sak! haha.

anddd...

for the very first time...
he spelled my name correctly on my album...
yes..its D-i-a-n-a..not D-i-a-n-a-h.. hehe.

he was so super-lively tis time.
he was super-merepekz also.
haha.
but he's Taufik!
whu cares if he's merepekz?!

okok..except for those taufik-haters la..chetz!
jealous nampak jealous nampak! taufik fofular kann!! HAHA.

simply love his short actings here n there.
hehe.

after we got our albums signed..

to the rest of my darling fiknatics..
sorry i dint join u gerls hor.. :x

we went to have dinner at LJS.
and Myra finally got her *gajah in bikini*..!!
nak sangat kannn!!
hehehe.

Happy Belated 20th (Twenteen kepe?) Birthday Myra!!
jangan la kau dera gajah tu ehhh...
ish.ish.

had our short "cam-whoring" session.

planned for our chalet in the bus on the way to Bedok!
took wrong bus la pulakkk.
nak pegi Tampines laaa.
pfft.

upon reaching home.
i was dead tired.

and now..
im in love with TiQ's candy sugar bag.
haha!
so me n su buying it lor!!
thanks for the info TiQ!!
sayang kamu tau! hehe.

ok lah.
till next time den.

me: ok..i'll call u..
him: no..no..i'll call u..
me: u nak call?
him: iyee..
me: ok..call me!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ok.that's bloody random!
and merepekz!

yes taufik..call me hor~!! haha.
pix credit to shad.

to cher:
get well soon darls~!
we're go on our "date" with McDreamy soon enuff! hehe.

2007-11-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

pls do not mind my previous entry.

was really EMOtional and blame it on PMS.

still down thou.

PMS pls go away fast!

urgh!

anyways..

did yu know?

Patrick Dempsey is in the Top 15 "The Sexiest Men Alive" in PEOPLE'S Magazine lah!

and he's in the 2nd position.

OMG! with eyes like that...

he shud be in the 1st place lahhh!!!

Matt Damon is so not sexy pls! HAHA.

cant wait for Enchanted pls!! :)

2007-11-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

As much as i want to pick myself up again.
Someone just HAD to push me down.

Now..
I dun think I wanna get up again.
Im tired.
Im done.
Im sick of all these jerks.

If he really want to be friends with me.
why?
why did he hide his status from me?
What the hell for?

If u really love your family..
You'll tell me RIGHT FROM THE START.
Not keep it from me and lied thru everything.
Den maybe we'll still be friends at least.

But now..
I dun even want to hear from you again.

you may be sweet and all.
you made me smile once again.
i thank you for that.
but
you are also the one that made me cry.

Im not crying BECAUSE OF YOU.
Im crying beacuse of my fate : on guys.

Thanks for making me hate guys even MORE.

Im so dead sure that I'll never TRUST another guy ever again.

yes.thanks to yu.
Congrats.

Biarlah
ku relakan segala
walau hidupku
sebuah tanda tanya
mengapa
biarpun
tak mampu ku bertahan
takkan pernah
ku akui kalah

pls dun ever ask whu the hell is he.
cz i dun ever wanna know whu he is as well.

2007-11-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

OMG!! im sooo in lurve with this lovely purse..!!

but its like 40bucks lorr~~!!

and im so broke.

i like the 'D' cz it represents my name Diana..

hehe.

any kind souls willing to buy it for me?!

hehe.

tak malu sungguh yee!?

eh!?

MALU RUGI BEB!!

haha.

tau takpe.

2007-11-12T03:06:00.000+08:00

ok now...everybody...
LETS GO WILD!!!!

i simply lurrrve them to bits lah!

had fun depa-raya-ing with them...
althou im dead tired and had blisters after everyting...
still a great memory... *winkz!*

bus rides with iffa n tiQ was fun!
so many topics came out all the way during our journey...
frm Tampines to Pasir Ris to Yishun!
we shud do this more often tau!
HAHA..

anyways..
Citibank pisses me off real BAD.
so i wrote in a feedback. (read: complaint)
i just couldn't stand the way they treated me and my dad.
too many mistakes lar.

i need driving lessons!
i've been missing almost 2 mths already..
my next lesson is 6th Dec!!!
urgh..Nov all fully booked.
im so pissed.
i miss driving pls!

my shoes are falling apart.
i need to go shopping.
but im broke.
work with no OT sucks.
.pfft.

its 3.30am.
i should be sleeping.
but im still chatting.
hope nothing goes wrong this time.
hehe.

on a lighter note..
i saw a rainbow 2 days ago at work..
no rain.no drizzle.a rainbow just appeared out of nowhere!
.simply blissful.
cheryl say, Rainbow brings good luck.
so darlings...
let me share my good luck with all of yuuuu...
hehehe..

till next time then!
toodles~

2007-11-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

How can i NOT like a guy with such Dreamy eyes..!??!

OMG...i really cant wait for Enchanted to be out in cinemas.

althou the show is kinda kiddy-ish...
i dun care! as long as McDreamy is there..!! haha...

cher..we shud sooo watch this!! weee...~~!!

Life's okay and great so far...

yea...its picking up...i think... HAHAHHA...

anyways...

i found out sumting soooo daym disappointing...

she totally lost all respect frm me...

haiz...

2mrw is Deepavali...

Happy Deepavali to my Indian friends...

and happy raya-ing with my Fikantic darlings 2mrw...

weee~!!! :)

till next time then...

2007-10-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

i have so much to blog abt..
esp. abt my last weekends.

i have this urge to blog
but
laziness came over me.
hmmm...

ouh well...

-----
Saturday...

went raya-visiting to my ex-iteMP class adviser's hse..
she lives in a condo in Simei...
a few surprises in the attendance...
i likee~~
the guys were atrociously LATE...
we were un-fashionably LOST...
and we reached cikgu's hm shame-fully LATE...

cikgu's condo area is gorgeous!!
i likeee..~~
but too bad i dint get to take pixtures...

so we take grp pichas instead!

i lurrvee the wall...nice kan!
mcm class foto..hehehe...

afterwhich we decided to go chill @ Sun Plaza...
so we took a ride in Herwan's lorry/van..no idea wat to call it la...
where i FORCED the guys to take the back area...
so they cramped inside the back area...HAHAHA...

they dun expect 2 girls to sit at the back right?
such sweet gentlemen ar all of them...heheheee...

upon reaching Sun Plaza..
we chilled at Coffee Bean...
took random pichas...
and gossiped practically abt everyting...

hope we can do that again sumtime soon...
i doubt so...

-----
Sunday...

time to do good deeds...
its abt time Diana!

i admit...
i aint an angel...

so me n my sistaz signed-up to be volunteers for the Fiknatic Volunteer Day @ Jamiyah Children's Home...
which was initiated by Taufik himself...

what more could be interesting than doing charity with yur idol?
i dun wanna lie la...

initially...
my intention was to see Taufik lar kan... *embarrassed*

BUT!

when i entered the home...
seeing all the little darlings...

frankly speaking...
i dun even care if Taufik's there or not!
HAHAHAHAHAHA...

i kept myself busy trying to remember the angklong boys' names...
yea... they were teasing me...
they switched their names...
causing me a headache...hehee...
in the end...
my darling Farhan...told me...
"kak..dorang ni mmg gitu..."
hehehe...so sweet can!!

well...the man himself was engrossed with the kid's antics...hehehe...

my kueh Makmur team is super shy...
i got some of the teenager boys...
whu are indeed shy...
but still helped us with the games...

especially my cicakman...

he's so enthu. at first...
he's even happy when i told him to act like Hang Tuah with his keris...
he's the one that wanted all the headgear...

but when Taufik tegur-ed him...
he became soo scared and shy...
awwww....

ish...Taufik...
u spoilt our plans la hokay!

ouh well...
i truly believe all the 25 volunteers,the TB.net team and even Taufik feels the same way...
when i say...
its a day we won't ever forget...
im going to miss the lil kids...

after all the fun games...
Taufik sang ...
I Dream...Bukan Kerna Nama [which he forgot the lyrics..hehe] and Usah Lepaskan on the piano...
boleh cair beb!

den he gave a short speech and gave away the prezzies he bought for the kids...
da mcm Santa Claus lak si Taufik ni kan! hehehehe...

ooohhh...
the volunteers were not forgotten u know!
the team have printed for us a 'Certificate of Appreciation' each!
and Taufik gave it to us personally...
sweetness!! hehehe...

while the lil darlings were busy looking at their prezzies...
the volunteers were busy taking pixtures with the man himself...

yea...
shameless me as well...
hey! its not everyday i get to take pixtures with him okay!

i know my sistaz da tk kuase nk take pix wif him...
but pls dun blame or comment on me if i still adore and wants to take a solo pix wif him...
its not like im going overly ga-ga over him...
but still...
sorry darlings!

now i miss chatting with my Farhan... :(
he's a cute lil chap to chat wif...
its like chatting with my lil sis...
hehe....

no pichas for this one...
if u want to see...
go to my 2 multiply accounts...
if u know me...
u know which 2 im talking abt...
hehehee...

-----

2mrw work...
can i take mc?
lazy laaaaarrrr....
urgh.

till next time then..

2007-10-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

my lil sis is having chicken pox...

urghhhhhhh....!!!

Simply...
just how GREAT is THAT!??!

a few mths back was my lil bro...
and i went bonkers trying to keep him away frm me...

now my lil sis!!
my favourite younger sibling!!
and i have to stay away frm her...
how to?!?!
:(

i dun want to be infected with chicken pox pls...
i've never got chicken pox yet...
and i havent taken the vaccine...

urgh...
im going crazy...
im tired and sleepy...

going cikgu's hse later...
i hope i got enought time to take nap first...
hehe..

2007-10-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

my left eye have been twitching for more den a week...
mummy always say it means u are going to cry...

recently...
my heart and feelings hasnt been feeling good...
kept thinking of bad things...
i hope my feeling is totally wrong...
please let it be wrong...
i dunnoe how i'll survive if its going to be true...

-----

i've an angry person all week...

and i've no idea why...
everyone is pissing me off...
or im jz freaking paranoid...

-----

Live The DReam Finals was great...
By Definition's 1st performance rocks arhhh!!
i likee...~
the studio was deafening...
i got a headache jz by sitting there...
erk...

mummy dint record my Grey's Anatomy yest..
i was soooo daym annoyed lor...
cant even help me...pfft..

-----

receieved BAD news at work today...
one of my instructors quitting...again...
that's the 4th instructor quitting eversince i've started working in Jan 2007...

the news is...
he's having depression...
HAHAHAHAHA...
depression damn it!!
that's wat the admin staff are expriencing too you idiots!!
when you guys quit...
we're the ones that's going to handle the dirty laundry you guys left behind!!!

now i can visualise the bloody students going all flared up when we're going to tell them that their instructor is leaving again...
i dun blame them thou`...

how wld u feel if the teacher u've paid for..keeps changing for more than 3 times??
but den again...

its all the students' fault that the instructors are under pressure and depression!!!

its no joke wen i say depression...
cz these ang mohs are under depression pills by their doctors lorr...
to that extend eh...

im going crazy...

one fine day...
i think any one of the students are going to complain me to CASE cz im goin to curse them to hell...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA....

-----

on a lighter note...

im goin to my cikgu's hse this sat for raya...
im goin to have fun wif my ite mp guys...
as usual...im the only malay girl again...
hopefully Esther dun cancel on me last min...

as for sunday...
time to do charity...
time to do good deeds...
in a good way...
*cheeky grin*
but arh...
im never good in games...
i hope i dun embarass myself...
seriously....

end of lighter note... hehe...

as for now...
go rot in hell people...
MUHAHAHAHAHAHA...

ok...
i get it...
i've definitely lost my sanity...

2007-10-24T11:47:00.000+08:00

Malam

This guy singing this song...
never fails to touch my heart...
*melting-mode*

credits to Taufikbatisah.net & youtube.com

2007-10-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

Lately...
i just felt my life is goin down and i dun feel it going up anytime soon...
seriously...

mummy have been nagging eversince dunnoe when...
frankly...
sincerely...
im really really tired and all drained out...
her naggings are getting old and repetitive...
its the same things over and over...again and again...
i feel so numb and immuned regarding this...

its not that i have no respect for her anymore...
of course i love my mummy...
i know wat she is doing is all for the best...
but being overprotective have its limitation...

its just that i feel that she cared more abt what others think than what her own daughter feels...

she says im embarrassing her...
even wayy before she hears my side of the story...
which its totally unfair and unjust....
im innocent...

but im sick of debating...

im tired of hearing she say...
that i never listen to her advice...

when the fact is...
i listened to every word she says thats why im depressed now....

she's in total control of my life again...
and there's nothing i can do abt it...

relationships?
i gave up on that too...
i gave up searching...
its too tiring...
mummy's expectations are too high for me to reach...
if mummy dun believe that i gave up...
so be it...
i couldnt be bothered anymore...

its my life...
but mummy controls it...
reason being...
she knows wat is best for me...
but trust me...
she'll nvr admit that she's controlling my life...

fine...
den she can control my life all she wants...
im done trying to rebel...
im too tired...

im pressurized by all these...

work aint helping much either...
bosses and directors have been such an ass lately...
showing smiling faces...
but talking behind our backs...
cutting costs here and there...
for wat!??! for yur beer?? yur alcohol???
mothertoads...

i feel like crying...
but...
tears are all dried up...

my broken heart is beyond repair...

im badly in need of a hug...
seriously...
no joke...
haiz...

2007-10-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

.redlight is here.

im always CRANKY and so EMO-sional..
and im not enjoying every minute of it..

.urgh.

i get angry and pissed of at the slightest mistake or misunderstandings..

i know its not totally me when im suddenly so angry at every single person...
ok...when i meant totally...
it means... i know im a short-tempered person..HAHA

everything is sooo Bleargh...

cash thinning out fast and furious also...
makes me all the more lazier and no mood to go out raya-ing...

i've visited only 4 hses in total after 6 days of Hari Raya...
so pathetic seh...

but!

im sooo looking forward to 8 Nov seh... :) *wink*wink*

so tis is my family on our 1st day...

visited my bestie whu's married wif 2 kids...my god-sons!
but her sons so shy now...
dun wanna take pichas wif us anymore...
CHETZ!

.BFF. - best fcuking frens! HAHAHAHAHAH...
lurve them to bits la...
even thou they are irritating... HAHA...
well..i know im irritating too.. blahz!

guess wat?
i realised...
i DO talk alot....
erk...
please do stop me if i talked too much okay?
so embarrassing can!! :(

on a much lighter and brighter note...
*Teman Istimewa* rocks my really-painful-high-heel-hari-raya-shoes! haha..
Simply said..
its totally worth it...

i feel like my mind and soul is so exhausted...
exhausted frm wat?
ntah? i also have no idea...
but im all drained out...

im giving up searching... :(

Find me...
my Teman Istimewa...
my Mat Sepet...
my Prince Charming...
my Leo...
my McDreamy...

im VERY sure its all my PMS talking...

2007-10-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya..Maaf Zahir Dan Batin
buat semua teman-teman (istimewa) ku! :)

Halalkan makan minum...
ampunkan dosa-dosa...
mahupon yg disengajakan ataupon yg tak sengaje eh?

im sick and im at work...
and malam ni...malam raya!!
how sickening that i have to work...
.pfft.

taking caring den...
will blog again soon enuff...

2007-10-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

i have soooo much to update...
but im sooooo darn lazy to type...
hahahah...
so let the pichas do the talking aites!?

- short sentosa getaway with them..was super fun!!-

- iftar with my iteMP ex-classmates..crazy moments -

- iftar with my crazy gf here @ pizza hut..my bitching partner..haha.. -

other than that...

i won the President Star Charity tix frm TB.net and i got to watch HIM perform LIVE...

after soooooo blardy long lorr!!!

hahahaha.... kinda missed him also...

- Fiknatics rocks!! althou i wished my sistaz were there as well..haiz -

okay...so now i kinda want to rant abt this guy here...

its random...but i find it a must...

so here goes...

my idol...named.. TAUFIK BATISAH...

get that in yur freaking minds!
its TAUFIK not Taufiq!!

its BATISAH not Batrishah or Batishah!!
sheessshhh!! so hard to remember BA-TI-SAH izzit??

i get easily irritated at people whu do not get names right...

cz ppl always get my name wrong...

its DIANA...not Diyanah or Dianah!... -PFFT!-
y the sudden irritation..?

i saw a show in malaysia wrote his name as Taufik Batishah..

so i was kinda annoyed...

to top it off...

my parents pronounced his name as...

Taufik Batrishah... -.-"

how can i not blow my top??

simply tryin to get on my last nerve...

next!

it had never ever crossed my mind to support an artiste to such extent...

as in... even get so involved in the fanclub...

never happened in my entire life before...seriously...

but supporting Taufik have changed my life entirely...

met so many interesting people...

lovely sistaz and close friends...

whom i would NEVER trade with anything else in the world...

i should thank Taufik for this coz if not for him...
i wouldnt have met such lovely people...

althou it have been almost a year since my last FANatic-going-all-over-Singapore-for-Taufik stint...
seeing him again still make me smile even im at my lowest point of my life...

people may say im crazy to go all fanatic over him...
friends may tease and say negative things abt him...

people may stop supporting him for all i care...

but im still proud to call myself a Fiknatic...

althou i told myself not to scream whenever i see him again...

[maintain composure la..]

but sumhow...

being with the ever-so-energetic-Fiknatics...

i'll never fail to scream myself hoarse...hehe...

all for our Mr. Soulman...

watever it is...

i'll always support him as long as i can...

Thanks for being the middle person...Taufik..

hehehehe...

i lurrrveee my Sistaz and my close friends... :)

2007-09-28T19:31:00.000+08:00

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
someone who changes your life just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop;
someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.

Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

so..i'll just need to find that someone...right?

2007-09-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

Lari,lari,lari
Aku lari tinggalkan semua ini
Untuk mencari, cari,cari
Ketenangan diri.....

Pergi,pergi,pergi
Engkau pergi dari hidupku ini
Ku tak mahu, mahu
Engkau hadir dalam diri ini...

ok...dats totally random...
but some part of it is true la...

i've jz read my lil sistaz's blogs....
their stress have sumhow set on me too lar!!

chetz!

how could that be!?
im not even doing any exams...hahaha...

to darling sistaz...
im sure yu gerls can do it...
study hard and smart...
learn frm mistakes always okay??
i sincerely...seriously...frankly...SERIOUSLY...miss yu darlings a wholeee LOT!!

Big Os pleaseeeee be nice to them and return them to us in one piece...
ahakz!
mcm nk pegi war pulak kan? hahahaha...

ouh well...
on a lighter note...
i went iftar with my ex-ite classmates...
it was seriously laughter all over...
althou there are indeed certain akwardness which was unavoidable...
but i had fun nevertheless...

cant wait to paint my room...
wait for the pixtures...hehehe....

to my darlin sistaz...
kakaks-kakaks tgh planning nk booking chalet for u...
so u better do well for yur Os hor!!
pressure sakk!! hahahaha...
no lar...
do yur very best and we'll always be proud of u ok?

as for me...
i'll enjoy my **vanity moment**...
HAHAHAHA...
pix credits to shad....

seriously shad... tk baik sakkk!! hahahaha...

2007-09-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

*** daydreaming alert ***

disclaimer: if u cannot take my daydream...u can get lost! hahaha...

yesterday me n bestie had a random conversation on guys two-timing and even polygamy...

she asked me...
"sis...do yu want to do a very good deed for yur husband??"

i glared at her...
waiting for her reply..

she replied...
"let yur husband marry another girl lar..."

i screamed at her..! haha..
cz she knew that i would never allow such behaviour even when the guy is only my boyfriend..
much more my husband!?
if he insists on marrying the other lady...
he will have to let me go...

what she said was a fact in a Muslim's view and its in the Quran...
BUT..
its provided that the husband is going to be VERY equal to all his wives...

which is quite impossible lor...
guys...
when they get new wife...
they'll be stuck to them like glue lorrr~!!!
.pfft.

then she dropped a bomb on me...

"what if....
what if....
what if your husband is Taufik Batisah...??
would you bare to leave him?? "

OH MY GOD!!
why such a question man!!

ok...here's where my daydreaming starts....

daym...~!!
quite true ar...
how to leave such a guy sia??
he's so difficult to get in the first place...
urgh...

so i told my bestie...
i dunnoe what to do if THAT were to really happen...
[which is quite a dream la if it is really to come true!haha]

so she laughed at me saying...
"we share Taufik lar..."

i glared at her and said...
"dun yu even dare..."

HAHAHAHAHAHA....

- end of random conversation -

but come to think of it...
if it is really to happen to me...
i would still leave him...
coz i can share everything else except my spouse/partner/husband...
althou i would be really heartbroken lar...

yu'll never know a guy's true colours right?

ouh well...
listen to 'teman istimewa' and imagine Taufik calling yu sayang...
hahahahhaa...
i think i'll melt on the spot sia...

if RAIN call me sayang...
i'll freeze....hahahahaha....

- end of daydream -

2007-09-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

OMG! this advert totally caught my eyes!
Korea + shopping = i likeee~!!!

hahahaha...
only problem...

no $$ la...hahaha..
so simple...so frustrating!

urgh...

2007-09-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

----

ok...
tis song is soooo kind-of related to my life la...

watever...
emo-ness aside...

its the mth of Ramadan!!
fasting mth... the time to cleanse our inner sins...ahakz!
so be extra good this mth people!!
Selamat menjalani ibadah puase to all my Muslim friends..

sorry for the lack of updates...

have been really busy lately...
i tried not to switch on my pc when i reach home after work...
why u ask?
cz if my pc is on...
i'll sleep really late...
so as to avoid that...
i'll only use my pc when really neccessary lor...haha...

so much had happened over the past few weeks...
took leave to go for my driving prac...
den i went overnight-ing with cheryl and shafik at Sentosa...
slept in the kampung huts...
ours was Bug-C = Bugis C...
hahahaa...its was a MINI Kampung i tell u!!
had fun...althou work kinda spoilt abit of my fun...
so annoying...pfft...

but i managed to see sumone cute there! hahaha...
watched 'Songs of the Sea' again...
fireworks lovely as ever...
den we played sparklers on the beach...
it was super-fun i tell u!! hahahaha...
Mal came to join us but left after playing sparklers cz she gt sch the next day...

den me,cher and shafik walked ard Sentosa at almost midnight...
they played music...
and we danced like nobody's business right in the middle of the road!
hahahaha... i would love to do that again some time...
so nice...so care-free...

den we went back to our hut...
it was creepy...
cz shafik scared me!! mothertoad punyer budak!!
nanti kau...

next morning...
had our breakfast...went on skyride and luge...
den we went Vivo to watch 'No Reservations'...

afterwhich...we went back...
i was sooo exhausted...

work is getting on my nerves recently...
new management sucks totally...
i wanna change job but i must endure till end of the year...
i hope i'll endure that long...
pfft.

goin break fast wif my ite friends in the next few days and next week...
i hope all will go as plan...
i would really hate it if people are to cancel last min after confirming wif me that they're going...
because its NEVER easy to get everyone to agree on a date...

i wonder will i ever go out wif my pri sch friends...
haiz...

my Fiknatic Sistaz??
wanna break fast together??
i doubt so...
these few mths...everyone is sooo busy...
nvrmind...
there's always next year darlings!!

cant wait for my next driving prac...
i got the same driving instructor for my 1st n 3rd lesson!
Mr Chua rocks my socks! hahahaha...
its not that my 2nd lesson instructor do not rock...
he does rock! but Mr Chua rocks more! HAHAHAHA...

ohhh...
i cant wait to watch 'Enchanted' the movie..!!
coz McDreamy is acting in it!!
omg cher!! we must watchh!! hahahaha....

ok lar...
i wanna go bitch wif my collegue...
hahaha...
*red light week*...so i can bitch hor...
HHAHAHA...

taking caring peeps~!

2007-09-05T13:47:00.000+08:00

Have yu watched Jay Chou's Secret???

im simply in lurrrve with this!!
the piano battle scene in Secret..
i likeee~~

2007-09-04T04:06:00.000+08:00

...can i please..for the love of GOD...
...move on...

i hate this feeling so much...
i hate holding on to sumting that's not even there anymore..

why is this flaw of mine soo hard get rid of...

sincerely...
im really contented wif my life now...

but i just want him out of my mind...
i dun want to think of him anymore...
please...

i dun wanna love him anymore...
i want him out of my past...
my memories...
my heart...

sumone please mend my heart...
fast...
steal my heart...
rob my heart...
donate it to sumone else...
or watever...
just do watever u want with my heart...

just help me get him out of my heart...

is there anything i can do to erase him...
simply impossible...
i know...

im crying again...
because of him...
even after 4 years...

i think im PMS-ing...
i HATE being sensitive...

...ku tidak mahu menyakiti hati ku lagi...
...enggan memikirkan cinta yg tiada balas nya...

2007-08-29T01:42:00.001+08:00

07022007 / Giordano Her 30s [CF]

Online Videos by Veoh.com

...watch the vid...

wats the moral of this entry and the vid???

DESPITE his ridiculous chicken-like hairstyle...
i still lurrrvveee him REGARDLESS...HAHAHAHAHA...
aint RAIN cuteee?! *smitten*
i love him even moree!! *melting*

**...and he reminds me of sumone in this vid...haiz...**

did yu know that the specs he was using have no lens?? haha..
watch this... Making of the Vid

..he never fails to make me smile silly..

2007-08-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

see that!!

im an angel!!!
OMG! so sweet can?
this student made my day lar...
HAHAHHAHA...

oh well...
i got my latest gadget...
weee...~~

shall blog abt it soon-ish...

Grey's Anatomy's backkk~!!
i lurrvvee my McDreamy... :)

yesterday dinner wif the Fiknatics is laughter all over...
its nice...

and i wanna watch Hairspray...
i want to see Zac Efron!

ok...all so random...
haha..
toodles~

2007-08-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

..im JEALOUS..

a kid wayyyy younger then me have a Nintendo DS Lite and i dun even have one!
pfft...
i envy kids nowadays... parents get them wat they want..pampered them...
YET...

they are stil rude to their own parents...

a student's lil sis came in my office with a PINK NDS in her hands..
yes..let me repeat myself...
...PINK NDS...
she's only pri 1 or 2... (@#@#%#$^#!$^!%^%*^&)
my collegue and i looked at each other in disbelief...
knowingly that both of us lurrrveee PINK...
we asked the kid to let us see her pink NDS...
we even played a few games...im addicted...
daym!
i love the touch-screen laarrr... sheeeshhh!!
the mum say their dad bought it @ $320 for 10games + protective screen and all lar...
wow... 320 ehhh...
haiz...
let me wait a few mths more?
wait for the price to drop at $200 or $100?? HAHAHAHAHA...

so im kinda contemplating between a PINK NDS or a PINK PSP....

OR

urgh...eitherways...
i dun tink i can buy it it in near future la...
need to save up for my next year trip to Bangkok...
which i hope my mummy allow me to go... :x

but...
looking on a bighter side of life...
mummy gave me green light to go for next mth's short trip to sumwhere near...
hehehehe....
yay! i shall ask her abt bangkok end of this year lar... hehe...

bestie went to London wifout even saying gdbye to me...
so mean...
pfft...
i BET she informed that guy...
but not me...
she nvr sayang me one...

nvm...
i stil have my FS... :)

2007-08-16T14:08:00.000+08:00

ok i know this is random...

but im bored...
and suddenly wanna search on Britney and Justin...

i really hope they'll get back together...
they are really one of the celebrity couples that i wld love to see get back together...
they are like made for each other...
they look so much happier when they were in a relationship back then...
haiz...

toopid Britney...toopid Justin...
everybody make mistakes wattt!!
its obvious that Britney regrets her mistake watt!!
chetz!

anyway...
watch this...
its soooo nice...

2007-08-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

ok...before u guys get the wrong idea... [jz like mal did...]
now my blog got no Trojan virus lahhh!!!
its my old one...
i went Hiatus due to the virus...
get it?
still dun get it?
den u are obviously slow...
so stop trying...

remember my idea of jogging after work?
it was replaced by jz walking it off going back home...
walked a longer route...
after which i treated myself to sushi... -.-"
WTH! exercise den eat!!
how to lose weight siaa?!
i better stop eating sia...
pfft...

upon reaching home...
mummy was teaching her students tuition... [Quran studies la ok?]
so after saying hi to the aunties and 'salam-ing' them...
i went to my room and watch some tv whil eating my sushi...
den i took a nap...
1hr later..my lil sista jumped on me saying that mummy cooked maggie me for us!
wee~!! i likeee...HAHAHAH...
so i woke up...ate my maggie...
and then went back to sleep...
had no idea why i felt so tired all of the sudden...
i slept till 8.30 sia! 4hrs!! ish..ish...
den i watched my 9pm show...

now im chatting with Mal...
so long nvr chat wif u la mal...
eversince she have stopped watching Korean dramas lor!! pfft...
now no one to pace with... nisa watch so fast... :(
nvm...
eitherways....did yu know that Skulls can be drawn cute?!
serious! dun believe? u ask mal...
she did this...HAHAHAHAHAHA

amazing right? LOL..

okok...
since im too hardworking all of the sudden...
here are the latest pichas frm the latest "event" n "gathering" i went to...

NDP with my sistaz...the kakaks-kakaks w/o the adiks...
WE ARE PART OF THE HUMAN SINGAPORE FLAG 2007!
WOO HOOO!! HAHAHAHA...

still Q-ing up lor...it was really a UGLY sight amongst the Singaporeans lor...
and we were engulfed in it too!! erk... haiz...
dun remind me again...

nisa took tis one..i like..! very nice...
still waiting for pichas frm shad's camera thou...

one of nisa's artistic shot with me in it! HAHAHAH... love the sky...! nice right?
lovely weather...

taken by shad...editted by me...
it just shows how PATRIOTIC i am lor!! HAHAHAH...
IM PROUD TO BE SINGAPOREAN... :D

ok next!
BBQ with my company...
jz 2 pix will do... :)

yap...dats me and my new boss... we jz changed to a new management...
and guess wat? he took tis picture himself... HAHAHAH...
he fell in love wif my cammy that day... kept asking for us to take pixtures...
HAHAHAHA...

FINALLY...a group photo...
i like!! too bad its a but too dark...pfft...

ok...enuff of pichas...
i better go to slp...
working am shift later...

anyways...
if u need a good laugh...
go to Xiaxue and read her latest entry on GAY JUSTICE...
its freaking funny!! I SPAM U...
HAHAHAHAHA...
keep an open mind la hor!

i hope my mummy wld pleaseeee stop pressurizing me before i go really crazy...
HAIZ...
im not kind if yu betray me... really...

till the next entry...
calo mano!

- back frm Hiatus -

2007-08-15T02:25:00.000+08:00

im backkk!!

sorry for the Hiatus..
aziQ's sister told aziQ that my blog got Trojan Virus!!!
pfft...i wonder how and frm where did the idiotic Trojan landed in my bloggie...

eitherways...
i've been too busy to update and i always hav lot to blog abt but no time..
thus the hiatus too!

so now...
i've created a new layout...
nahz...jz the top part..HAHAH...
simple eh? no time mah!! pfft...~
i dunnoe why my tagboard jz wont show up!!
so bear wif me aites!
will get it up asap...

anyhoos...
Happy Belated Bday to dear Iffa...
hope u like yur prezzie...
sorry we cant get yur fav books...
idiotic maybank have been a bitch to us...
so we cant purchase it..sowie!!

and happy belated bday to Singaporeee!!!
had fun goin out wif the kakaks...haha...
pixtures updated at our multiply la k?

had a bbq session wif my boss and collegues at my instructor's condo...
it was fun...
and utterly sinful...HAHAHAHA...
im gonna miss my instructor whose leaving us end of tis week...
haiz...

and...
today i went for my 1st prac driving lesson...
its nerve-wrecking yet fun and funny...haha...

for now...
i'd better sleep...
working am shift later...
die...

i wanna lose weight...
thinking of going jogging after work...
hmmm...

will update later...~
toodles~

2007-07-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

i did sumting crazy this morning...

arghhh!!

only me and my parents know...

and im not telling...

i hope it wont happen ever again...

i feel like running away to somewhere happy...
haiz...

2007-07-24T02:25:00.000+08:00

i've just finished watching K-Drama 'Wonderful Life'..
its a very nice show..
i cried while watching the last few episodes..
call me sensitive or watever...
i jz couldnt be bothered...

somehow...
i felt good after crying...

i dunnoe why or for wat...
i just feel the need to cry...
i just need to...

i felt like a weight being lifted off my heart after crying...

now i feel like crying again...
OMG...
is sumting wrong with me?

i feel sooo tired all of a sudden...

am i trying too hard to be happy?

life's good so far...
but...
wat am i so sad abt...?

can i run away?
can i be alone and just cry my heart out?
can time stand still and just stop...

i think my energy and courage is running thin...

and i have no freaking idea what the hell im talking abt!!!
FCUK...

im going crazy...

-ignore me pls-

2007-07-19T13:07:00.000+08:00

Blogger is getting on my nerves...really...
its not publishing my latest edits...
urgh...

anyway...
i wanna rant abt my driving journey la...
eh..not driving yet...just theory for now..

but still...
frankly speaking...
i am never a confident person to start with...

i never had the courage to do things on my own...
i always must have sumone to accompany me...
but eversince i met my darling sistaz and fiknatic family...
im a much braver person...

hey!
now i go for my driving theory lessons on my own hor!
thanks to nisa...really...
for accomapnying me thru sms...HAHAHAHA...
thanks sis!

i even dare to go travelling wif my frens...
with i kinda scare to do so ar...
soo much improvement in me...
i likee~~ hahaha...

but one thing that i wld never change...
i can never walk alone wifout listening to music...
even if my mp4 batt went flat...
my hp will play music for me all the way home...
or i'll call up anyboday to chat wif me...

truth is...
i cant stand silence that much...
except wen im sleeping...
or maybe sick...

silence is scary...
erk...

2007-07-19T08:48:00.001+08:00

shud i say..i told yu so? ahakz!
its jz like any another music competition in Singapore...
Girls can never win in it...
Guys will always come up tops...
its logic! girls are always the ones voting...
n girls will never vote for another girl right? HAHA..

althou i seldom watch Anugerah 2007...
last night i watched it dgn bersungguh-sungguh...
[amazingly la..also bcoz i was not working mah!]
i've heard Roslan..Maiya and Nuwun sang before...
they have talent..no doubt abt it...
but i've never heard Aliff sang before..
i always missed his performance...
my mum whu have been following the series have been harping to me on how great his voice is despite his baby-dimple-face-boyish-look...HAHAHA
i jz nodded but i was stil sceptical abt it la...hehe...

and last night...
Aliff Aziz proved me wrong lar! HAHAHA...
he got the voice arrr...
despite his baby-dimple-face-boyish-look...
and it seems that he was the only one that was enjoying himself in all the 4 performances...
so..all in all..
i think he deserved to win...
n i heard frm mummy dat he came frm Wild Card summore!! alamak..
wat an achievement ehh! hehehe...

ok lar adik eh...
now concentrate on yur 'O' Levels...
den u can enjoy sepuas-puas nyer...
jz hopefully Suria wont neglect another Anugerah Champion...

so enjoy this... :)
ouh..wait for my blog song to end first ok? sowie~!

ouh btw...
to Hyrul fans...
enjoy the 2005 Champion's performance here at youtube...
how could STABS ever forget u dude...
all the best.. :)

hopefully tis Sat it wont rain plsss!!!

2007-07-14T09:14:00.000+08:00

OMG..
im sooo free now lorr...
wont be busy till 10am today...
cz that's when all the little kids will be coming for their lessons...

anways...
i was browsing thru NTUC website...
[my application was approved by the way..yay!]
sumhow...
THIS ATTRACTED ME...
erk!
UTravel
can i go Redang Island on board a CRUISE pleaseeee...?!
urghhh...

u know wat?
i have sooo many pending trips to go yu know?
now i wonder when will i ever really start to save...
hmmm....

pending trips:
Thailand/Bali [elder bro] - ard november perhaps..
Bangkok [next yr] - cher..and dunnoe whu else..
Bangkok [again~!] - nisa..and dunnoe whu else..
??? - bestie! she still havent decided..but she's going London..wifout me lor! ish...

aiyahhh!!
all these pending only...
not confirm if im going for all lorrr...
siao ar? i still need to save hor!
and btw...mummy dearest wont agree to all...
but i wld love to Bangkok sia...

mayb i'll persuade my bro to take the Redang trip??
hmmm...
maybe i should...
since he still cant decide where to go...HAHAHAHAH...
as for bestie... her taste so expensive la...
i cannot afford sia...

Mal asked me to go Korea [my NUMBER 1 PLACE TO GO]..
i also cannot afford to go...
haiz...

mayb i shud tink abt my car license first...
den get a car!!
sak arr!! cita-cita mau tinggi beb!! HAHAHAHHA...
i changed my own pc wallpaper to my fav car...
MOTIVATION IS THE KEY!!
HAHAHHAA...

no matter what!
i shall get that car one fine day...
sooner or later... :)

2007-07-12T00:50:00.000+08:00

..Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix..

caught the sneak peak jz now wif the others...
how's the show?

ok...i wont give spoilers of coz...

the show is how yu say it... 'eehhh---okay'...
but it wasnt as exciting as the 1st n 2nd part of the movie...
this opinion is coming frm sumone whu never reads the HP book ok??
i jz watch the movies...
so dun blame me if my knowledge on Harry Potter aint that deep...

for me...
i dun tink directors can ever follow directly frm the book laa...
even spiderman wasnt following exactly frm the comic!
if u want to take directly frm the book...
like shad say... 6hrs also not enuff!! HAHAHAHA...
sorry to the book-readers hor..

the show is very fast-paced...
funny parts here n there...
special-effects..as usual..GREAT...

but...
mayb i expected more?
hmmm... thus the disappointment now...
eitherways...
its a nice show overall lar...

i dun tink i'll ever read the book...
why? its super thick! cant yu see??
its like my old Accounts book piled up 3 times!!! HAHAHAHAHA....
pls la...even my Final Theory book i havent read...
hehehehe...

anyhoos...
its a nice movie to watch!
and cute and HAWT Harry to watch! hehehe...
catch it...
take note: whu said this line.. :)
..'i must not tell lies'..

to me...
Transformers stil rocks my world... ;)

2007-07-11T02:26:00.000+08:00

..i've decided..

i would rather not wait...

if he's sincere...
he would have taken the initiative to start the conversation...
and not wait for me to start everyting...

maybe im being too sensitive...

but i dun care anymore...

my feelings are not for guys' plaything anymore...

if he ain't serious...
den i shall leave...

i dun want to wait or be in a situation where i know it wont last at all...

regardless...
thanks for the memories...

:) ...just smile..and there's nothing you can't overcome... :)

cant wait to watch Harry Potter 2mrw!!
yay-ness~!!!
and Smiling Pasta rocks! :)

2007-07-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

Did yu really tink i posted on 07.07.07 @ 7.07pm?

HAHAHAHAHAHA...
if yu believed me... "good for yu" ... ;p

ouh well...
its 07.07.07...
such a significant date...
its my favourite number summore...07...

i made a silent promise to myself every year...
on my bday each year...
it dint came true...as usual...
but this year...
wen it dint came true on my bday...
so i re-wished my same wish for the 07.07.07 day...

as i expected it...
it dint came true...

ouh wells...
tis coming week will be a super busy week for me...
Theory Lessons...
goin Ikea...
Harry Potter!! weeee~!!!

simply cant wait!!

ouh~
i wanna print out our Manja mag ar...
mcm Xclusive gitu kan! HAHAHAHA...

till next time den~

..dun wanna grow up..take me away..

2007-07-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

i was browsing thru my photobucket [which hav hundreds of unnecessary pichas]..when i found tis...

my last HIATUS pix...
i find it soo nice n uniQue la...
see the injured bear at the faded background?
so pitiful right?
yeah...dat was me a few years ago... :(

working fullshift again today...
my collegue had to stay in the hospital as her dad is in critical stage...
cant say no right?
but still...
im sick of work already...
haiz...

i wanna go Sentosa soon!!!
darling kakaks...
we shall date each other soon hor...

ooohhh!!
did u know?
im a CLOUD!!! HAHAHAHA...
lost? its ok..as long as me and Mal knows...
HAHAHAHAH...

ok...
now i have mental block liao lar...
till next time..

2007-07-05T09:39:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! its 9.40am in the morning and i feel fresh...
its weird...
im seldom soo fresh in the morning...
especially when i stayed up till 1.40am in the morning... hehehe..

ok lar..
i woke up at 8.25am when im supposed to be at work at 8am...
HAHHAHAHA... mampozz!! sesuke hati aku je kan!!
alaa...the 1st lesson starts at 3pm mind yuu!!
so now im very the free til 3pm lorrr...
anyways...i reached work at 8.40am...
i took cab la...
my latest bad habit...
have been cabbing to work everytime i work morning...
lazy to walk to work laaa....
haiz... $$ gone jz bcoz i lazy to walk... pfft...

anyhoos...
i tink i know why im feeling fresh even thou i stayed up late last night...
cz i chatted with him for an hr and a half!! :)
that's the first ok!!
based on the fact that we're in totally different timezones...
his side was noon and mine was 1am...
althou our chat was based on very very very religious cum personal cum interesting topics... its really fun chatting with a lawyer yu know!!
he's full of questions...
and at some point...
i felt like i was being interogated in court... erk!
well... its really nice talking to sumone whu is open-minded...
and he's full of confidence...
he's not scared at all wen i told him my last crush is back...
he jz said... ok lor!
wth...HAHAHHAHA...
yu full-of-confidence-dude...HAHAHAH...
and now he made me wanna go to the library to read up on certain facts...
sumone care to tell me where is the national library? hehehehe...
or even better...accompany me larr!! ;p

now he made me cant wait for 19th July to come quickly...
come back quickly sweetie...and make me smile once again...
:)

*im no angel..but i can make yu smile*

2007-07-04T15:52:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i get emotional..
Sometimes i do some stupid things..
Sometimes i say what i should just keep inside..
Sometimes im sad about everything..
Sometimes im mad and break some things..
Sorry times 10..but u just get in the way..

You say I'm just impossible..
Totally unpredictable..
I'm just a girl get use to it..
No big deal..
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile..
And that's the way it is..
That's just the way I am..

no worries...
its just lyrics to a song...

but it does described me in some way or another...
especially the part..

I'm just impossible..
Totally unpredictable..
I'm just a girl get used to it..

haha...

anyways...
to kak kqeera...
sowie for the misunderstanding aites! :)
all is ok now...
that one for a short while jek...

anyhooss...
Manja June Special Edition cover rawks big time! HAHAHAH...
and my fwen [ahem-ahem] managed to book Harry Potter movie tix...
sneak preview summore! is that great or wattt!!!
baikkk arrr!!

meeting my bestie n bro later...
gonna indulge in my Berry`d Treasure and do alil bit of shopping arr...
but both of them end work late...
hmmm...i guez i go shopping on my own first lar...
no digicam for today thou`...
my elder bro borrowed my beloved cam to Korea...
well...he better get my cd sehhhh...
if not he can buy me a snowglobe! hehehee...
but i want the cd!!! pfft...

ouh well...
im sooo lovin` my sistaz recently lar...
dunnoe why also...
because it have been in a while since i feel so loved and secured in a friendship other den with my bestie...

well...my past friendships hasnt been so good...
thus the result with my sistaz larr...
heheheh...
i wanna go Ikea and buy a frame...
and i feel like printing and framing up the manja cover...
so does it need anymore editing?
sistaz...leave me a note kays!

on another note...
news on Rain recently hasnt been good...
the States is really getting on my nerves...
im getting pissed...treating my Rain in such manner...
pfft...
nvm...
Rain will still be Asian's Sweetheart... :)
my sweetheart too!! hehehe...
i miss Rain's acting...
his movie better come out SOON...
chetz..padahal dia blum start acting pon! HAHAHAH...

ok lar...
i shud get ready now...
till next time den...

2007-07-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

OMG...
finally an off day after 4days of intensive working...
i can go crazy if i stayed another 14hrs in that tiny office...

ouh well...
dint do much today...
dint go for my theory class coz i had to fetch lil sis frm school...

after that...
i sit in front of my pc and did some editting on pixtures...
thanks to nisa for teaching me on how to extract! hehehe...

den went to tampines to meet kak kqeera to take the cd frm her...
ermm...
was a bit disappointed...but nvm... :)

upon reaching home...
i continued editting pixtures...
was in the mood mah...

so let me present to yu...
Manja's June Special Edition...

and the personal covers...

im too free right? yeah watever...

now im sleepy...
till next time!

2007-07-02T09:28:00.000+08:00

...Life's UNfair recently...

when im down and alone...
no one came to my rescue...

but...

when i finally found sumone i can feel i can be happy with.. [for now only..]

he jz had to come back...

whu u ask?

my last crush...
whu disappeared into thin air after his daddy's demise...

i dun blame him for trying to be alone bcoz he's sad...

but cant he even msg me?
he left me hanging for more den 3mths...
dint even reply to any of my msgs...

and just when im happy again with my *sweet sumone*...
[whu is very far away now...]

he jz had to msg me in msn last night...
i was sooo shocked!

and memories start coming back...
ooohhh...great...

his reason for coming back?
tak dosa kan?

mothertoad...#$*%&#%!$!

memanglah tak dosa!!
tapi explain lah why the disappearance!!!

urghhh...

now why do i say life's unfair?
i like both of them... [not love..]
and i cant choose...

OHHHHH GREAATTT LORRR!!!

i shud jz find a third guy...
and choose him instead!!
PFFT...

cant guys just QUIT messing up with my mind?!?!!?

last night's dream was peculiar...
dreamt of my last love...
he held my hand so tightly and took me away with him...
to where...i hav no idea...
i jz remembered how tight he held my hand...

i need to move on seh...
it have been almost 4 years...
can i change to a new heart pls?
or at least...ask him to return my old heart back?
haiz...

im tired...
im exhausted...

ice-skating or sentosa anyone?
im in need of fun-ness....
4 days working non-stop is driving me nuts!

can 19th July pls come by fast?

i need some new lovin`!!
hehehe...

2007-07-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

...GOD is really testing my patience today...
thankfully...i got thru it...
but i almost broke down...

work sux all day...
customers/students all ranting and cursing me openly... haiz..
sindir-sindir depan aku...ape niee!! aku invisible kepe!?!? aku sepak kangg!!
im really exhausted tryin to explain and answer their enquiries...
and even those stupid qns which i hate soo much!! urghhh!!

still have 14hrs 2mrw...
and 9hrs on monday...
im dying soon...

and scanner was being a bitch to me...
after scanning all the pixtures...
suddenly there's an error asking me to restart the pc...
so after restarting...
all the scanned pichas gone...
@#%$&%^#*#%*@$^...
if i have heart attack...
i'll easily be gone today...
pfft.
blardy pissed seh!

anyways...
sistaz's pichas were lovely...
as for mine..
double chin showing...tummy also...
shud i go for extreme makeover? HAHAHAHA...
ok...thats crazy talk...
ish...photoshop dun do wonders as we tot it seems! HAHAHAHA...
anyways...
i esp. lurrrvee our grp pichass!!
go to my links for the link to our multiply...

ok lar...
next surprise for my sistaz...
wait til u gerls abis O Level la ehhh...
cepat lar abiss!!
ishhh...
boring la tk kluar!! hehehe...

as for my lil bro...
Happy 17th Bday bro~! :)

2007-06-29T09:16:00.000+08:00

pls entertain me for another 13 hours... for 3 more days...
urghhh.... im sooo not lovin` thiss!!

haiz...wat to do...
work is still work...

anyhoos...
do yu know that TRANSFORMERS ROCKS BIG TIME???!!!
OMG! i watched it last night with my family...
i dint know BIG ROBOTS can be comedians as well!!!
how can a BIG ROBOT hide frm humans??
well..watch the movie to find out...HAHAHAHAHA...
that's my very fav. part of the whole movie!!
its super fun to watchh!!!
i like Bumblebee...he's sooo darn cute!!
sooo protective...
can i have a car like that please... ;p

Megatron sucks...so big and nasty...n he hates humans..bleahz
Prime is strong.. [as wat my elder bro told me..]
but i dun see his strength in the movie lar...
in fact i find him too slow... [well..all "good guys" in movies are slow..]

ooohh...dis yu know??
Megatron and Optimus Prime are brothers??
HAHAHAHHA...i dun see the resemblence at all lar...
HAHAHAHHAHA...ok...dats random... my bro told me mah!!

even if u dun like Transformers or robots...
jz catch it la...its worth it! REALLY...
i can see that the animators of the movie is really having fun with the movie... :)
its truly goin back to my childhood days where i play transformers with my elder bro...hehehehe...

ok...enuff of robots...
i've paid for my 2nd part of my driving lessons!
but nisa shud finish up faster den me...
i'll catch up after work..HEHEHE...

got the makeover pixtures frm kak kira...
OMG...
WE LOOK SOOOO DARN LOVELY CAN!?!?!
ok..except me...
i look so *toot* chubby...
need to exercise SOON...HAHHAHA.. [i wonder when...]
but mummy still say nice...despite seeing me so chubby..
she say...she's used to it!!! HAHAHAHA...
sindir kepe!!! bleahz!

nvm lar...
ok sistaz...
nak tgk pixtures?
wait long-long la eh...HAHAHAHA...
korang O Level per? after dat la eh?
hehehehe...
no lar... wait til kak nisa kamu tu abis scanning ok?
i only got mine n iffa's pichas...
nisa..nanti upload kat multiply aites!

ok lar...
i've nth more to blog abt...
and i stil have 13 hrs to gooo...
tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!

PFFT..

2007-06-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Sunday was a BLAST...SERIOUSLY...

we dint even care that we dint have a bite since morning...
i dunnoe abt the rest la..bt i dint eat..HAHA...

coz we were busy having pure fun i tell yu...
having layers and layers of ~~paint~~ make-up on yur face takes a long time...
and there's 8 of us!! so it took almost close to 4hrs to finally be done with all of our makeup...minus the touch up ar...
if i add touch up..i tink it will be 5 hrs! HAHAHA...

ok...i admit i aint such a big fan of makeup...
but seeing all my other sistaz all done up sooo beautifully...
im so happy i brought up this idea...
and thanks so much for going along with my idea..sistaz...
sorry yu gerls had to save up jz for this...
but its worth it right? :)

our group photo was lovely...
candid looked so happy!

i love every single one of my sistaz's transformation...
darling adiks looked soo angel-lic...
dearest kakaks looked soo anggun..

esp. shad lar...
she looked sooo different!! wee-wiittt!!! hehehe...
im soo glad she dint resist that much... ;p

as for me...
erm...
im reminded of how chubby i am now...
so i tink i must shed these baby fats on my cheeks and adult fats on my tummy!!
SERIOUSLY... pfft...

so my pix dint turn out all that pretty as i expected...
cz i tend to perspire very fast... [thus the reason why i hate makeup..]
my chubbi-ness is jz too much larr... urghhh...
chetz...!

of coz there are great shots no matter wat....
which dint show my chubbiness that much... luckily...
hehehe...

well...
i dun blame the makeup or the camera...
its jz me...
haiz..

regardless...
my sistaz photos were over-the-top-great!!
million thanks to kak kqeera..her hubby..her mother-in-law and the 2 others...
whom i dunnoe whu..sowie...

now i cant wait to see the grp photo!
weee~~

for the unofficial pichas... [unofficial = behind-the-scenes]
go to our multiply...

- here's my favouritest picha! -

i tink i better sleep now...
till next time!!

2007-06-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm...

i know i have lots to update...
but after i logged in and ready to type...

im lost...
i forgot wat to type...

erk...

one hot story amongst my family now is...

one of my favourite-st cousin [same age as me] is in a process of getting to know my elder bro....
hehehe...weee~~!!
well...
both sides of our siblings agree to the idea of...
if they are ever gonna get married anyways!
[ok...only myself for my side...as my 2 younder siblings hav no idea watsoever]
hahahaha... funny right??
my elder bro has a crush on her during our younger days...
i knew abt his crush... but he doesnt know i knew...haha...
im close to my cousin...but we seldom contact due to distance larr...
she lives in malaysia...
i hope all things goes well for both of them...
insyallah...amin...
so i'll get my cousin to be my sister-in-law!! HAHAHAHA...
how GREAT IS THAT!!!

as for myself...
my sistaz makeover is in a few hrs time...
im nervous...
and i have no freaking idea why...
hmmm...
regardless...
im very sure we'll have absolute FUN FUN and MORE FUN...
ok...now i cant wait~!
HAHAHAHHA...

recently...
i admit i've been giving attitude to some people...
its mainly bcoz i had enuff...
my patience have gone over the limit...
so dun blame me if im sacarstic or dun look u in the eye wen i talk to u...
i dint wan u to come coz i noe i cant talk to u now...
its him whu invited u along...

its not the fact that u dint come for the trip dat bothers me...

its the fact that you DID NOT INFORM me that u cant come...
the fact that u waited for me to ask...den u answered...
the fact that u didnt even have a decency to apologise...

please correct me if im wrong...

im just utterly disappointed thats all...
i really treasure our sisterhood...
if im not disappointed...means i dun give a damn abt u at all...
it shows that...
yur bf matters more than wat we used to call sisterhood...

even if our sisterhood meant nothing...
does friendship even existed all along?

i envy some of my friends whose sisterhood lasted even after school have looonngg ended...

well...
we cant always have everyting we want...

im just glad i still have my family...my bestie and my sistaz...
i guess they are enuff to keep me sane...

sistaz...
thanks for keeping me sane...
really...
i appreciate it so much...
love u babes very much! :)

i feel like watching My Girl again lar..
HAHAHAH...
or many ISWAK?
hmmmm....
too many k-dramas hav sad endings...
cannot take it sia~...

can Rain pls act wif a beautiful ending next time...?

ooohhh!! anywhooosss....
RAIN can use his Stage name for his US concert again!!!
weee~!!!
i tink they drop charges lar....
maybe they cannot take the fans' threatens...HAHAHAHAH
maybe only hor!

ok lah...
will blog abt our crazy-ness once we're done wif it...
omg..i cant wait~!!
weee...~~

but...
i havent got my clothes ready...
die~

2007-06-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

i've just finished watching 'My Love Patzzi'...in 2 days...

the ending?
well..its a happy-go-lucky-ending lar...
hehehe...

i wanted to watch 'Sweet 18' now...
but nisa say wait til veoh finish upload til epi 16...
pfft...

now no show to watch...
im lost...
maybe i shud sleep early tonight...
hmmm...

anyways...
RAIN SHOULD KEEP HIS STAGE NAME...

bloody idiots....sue RAIN for money izzit!!

im bored...
and one of my collegue at work thinks i have no life izzit??
she kept changing my mid or morning shift to night shift...
WAT THE HELL....
i know i dun have BF lar...
but that doesnt mean i dun have friends to go out with lorrr!!!
i hate it when she jz changes the timings at our schedule at work...
without informing me...or asking me first....
i mean...if i dun hav plans on that day...i dun mind changing lar...
but she shud at least have the FCUKING DECENCY to inform me or ask me first right!?
she changed twice...wifout telling me...
until i saw the change on the schedule at work itself...
kind of rude right?
den i wanted to change my night shift for 28th...i asked 1 week in advanced seh...
she say cannot...this mth she got lots of bdays n parties...
i asked for one day only seh...cz my family wanna go out n watch movies that day...
she say cannot...
AKU MCM NK SEPAK JUGAK NI POMPUAN SEH!!!!

every patience have its limits....

I MEAN IT...

dun tink im being nice... u can step all over me...
u wouldnt wanna know the bad side of me...

urgh!!!
ok...im done ranting...

till next time den...

2007-06-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

im back~!!
frm KL...

trip to KL was fun...
went for all the thrill rides...
even thou deep inside i was freaking out...HAHAHA...
but i went for it anyways...
just like wat i wanted in life...
try out everything before i die... :)

but gasping for oxygen for 5hrs wasnt fun at all...
yeps! i got an asthma attack on the 2nd night...
it was almost killing me...
i cant lay down..i can bend down...
i cant even sleep...
coz all these will make me even harder to breathe...
i was panicking...
my parents were in the next room...
i wanted to wake them up...but im scared they'll scold me...
my younger siblings saw me having difficulty in breathing...
but they dint do anyting...cz they dunnoe wat to do...
i dun blame them...coz im lost myself...
so they went to sleep...
while i was walking trying to calm myself down...
tried breathing thru a plastic bag...drank warm water...
ate my cough medicine...nothing worked!
i really panic-ed...
i msged my ex...he lives in KL anyways...
he told me to relax...he's bloody worried himself...
he told me to tell my parents...but i dun wan...
cz i knew it was all my fault...

i was down wif flu on my 1st day in KL...
but i stil ate waffles wif ice-cream n root beer float at a&w...
sooo cold!! how can my body take it??
n KL was raining...which adds to the cold-ness...
urgh...so dat explains my condition lar...

in the end...
my ex accompanied me by sms-ing me till i fell asleep sitting down on the sofa...

up till now...
im stil having short breaths....
the attack dint completely disappeared...
haiz...
so i have to refrain myself frm my fav. icecream and coldness for the time being...

soooo...
next trip pls!!

nisa's planning to go batam...
my elder bro planning to go Thailand end of Nov... [im sooo going!!]
n bestie's planning to go... ermm...i dunnoe where...

so this year...
im officially BANKRUPT liaooo!!!! HAHAHAHAH...

anyways darlings...
thanks for all the care and concern regarding my last entry...
like i said in the beginning...
my *emo* mode was ON...
so pardon the emotional ride...

to my larling sistaz...
cant wait to see yu babes this Sunday...!!
we'll be crazy that day aitess!!!
no worries...watsoever...
we'll just have fun...
and pls remember to bring yur outfitss...!
thank yuuuu~~~!!!

till next time den...
toodlesss~~

2007-06-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

Kaer - Izinku Pergi

Sinaran mata
Cerita segalanya
Duka lara terpendam
Memori semalam
Tinggal segala cinta
Tiada kembalinya
Abadi kasih kita
Kau bawa bersama
Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga selamanya
* Chorus
Pergilah rinduku
Hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung
Derita di kalbuku
Pergilah sayangku
Bermula semula
Semangat cintaku
Membara kerana dia
Tiada niatku
Tersemat jiwa
Setia bersamanya
Cinta murni berdua
Beribu tahunnya
Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga selamanya..
Repeat Chorus: *
Maafkan daku duhai kasih
Izinkan Ku Pergi…

i feel like my *emo* mode is ON...
this song have been on repeating mode for i dunnoe how many times already...
i read rafeah's entry...she say she felt the loneliness have set in since she's single for 3 yrs..

well...wat abt me?
im single for more den 4 years i think...
loneliness is the closest friend i have eversince...
im beginning to feel that i dunnoe or understand wats love anymore....
i beginning to give up trying to search for it...

seeing all the couples ard me...
watching all those love stories...love shows...
made no effect on me anymore...
i feel NUMB...
i dun feel jealous anymore...
or worst still...
i dunnoe wat to feel anymore...

im afraid to put my hopes too high...
or even invest in any hope at all...
coz each time i tried...
im disappointed yet again and again and again...
should i stop all these...?
should i just sit and wait?
or should i keep on trying?

people say Love is Unexpected...
so dun try too hard...
ok...that means...
i should sit and wait...right?

but

people also say...we should make an effort...
so...that means...
i should keep on trying?

ok...im confused...
this is so contradicting...

he shut the door to my heart and threw the key away...
i wonder whu will find the key and open the door to my heart...
maybe i'll never know...

maybe i should just stop trying...
im really tired...all drained out...
from trying...

im glad i've straighten things out...
i told him everyting that i wanna tell him...
at least we are still good friends as ever...
now even if i died...
i know i've tried and did my best...

im going off to KL 2mrw til Sunday...
so if anything happens...
...to all...
i wanna mintak ampun dan maaf atas segala kesalahan dan dosa-dosa...
halalkan makan minum...
take care...

anyhoos...

Happy 23th Birthday to my dearest sis...Wan Normahiyah~
semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki...
may yu be blessed with health and happiness always...

im sorry we havent been spending time lately...
please do take care...

...that's all from me...
Time waits for no one

:: aNNa` ::

2007-06-10T09:12:00.000+08:00

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

note to self:
dia bukan milikku lagi...

2007-06-10T07:50:00.000+08:00

awww...
please let me correct myself...

TAUFIK WON 3 AWARDS..BUT HE BROUGHT HOME 5 TROPHYSS!!!

isnt it cool or what?!!?
woo hoo~~!!!!

i really wanna see all the different trophys in his mummy's room siaa~!! HAHA..
must be very the colourful...hehehe...

Congrats once again Taufik...
u've made us..the Fiknatics Proud as EVER!!! ;)

saw his performance on youtube...
and i must say...
im falling for his voice all over again when he sang 'Cinta Terakhir' and 'Hapus aku'... *cair mode*
i admit i aint as fanatic as last time...due to work and all...
but Taufik never fail to put a smile on my face...all the time... :D
jz like rain....hehe...sempat selitkan! HAHA..

to the ladies going to Danga Bay tonight...
scream for Taufik for us...and...
please do take care and have fun aitess!!

ok..enuff of Taufik... hehe.. :)

i watched 'A Millionaire's First Love' yesterday...
and its needless to say...
the ending's sad...
yet AGAIN...

WHAT THE HELL!!
im beginning to get sick of the stupid sad endings...
too heartwrenching lar... :(
what are they trying to say to the people watching?
that all love stories dun neccessarily end with... "Happily ever after"??

yeah...that's reality...
but give some credit lar...
its a show...give happy endings lahh!! pfft~

but this show...
the ending NOT that sad ar...
compared to 'a love to kill' or 'Sang doo'...

i need to watch happy endings soon...
if not my emo mode will turn on...
erkkk!! and i hate that...
so i'll watch 'My Sassy Girl' or 'Sweet 18' next...

hmmm...
we shall see then...
im so lazy to work today...
can i go home now?
HAHAHAHAH...
FYI: i jz sat in the office for 1hr... ;p

till next time~

Nidji - Hapus Aku

Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

2007-06-09T09:43:00.000+08:00

BLOODY IDIOT...
SCREAM AT MY EAR FOR WAT??
I ADMIT I MADE A MISTAKE...
I APOLOGISED SO MANY TIMES...
STILL TALK SO MUCH...
NO ISO..?? SOO?? LIKE AS IF U NEVER MAKE MISTAKE BEFORE?!
WANT TO COMPLAIN TO MY MANAGEMENT??? BE MY BLOODY GUEST LARR!!
MOTHERTOAD..!!!!
ARGHHHHH!!!!!

i feel so good after slamming the freaking fone...
HAHAHAHAHA...

ok..im done ranting abt a particular sickening student's father...
such a jerk...

next...

CONGRATULATIONS TO TAUFIK FOR WINNING 3 OUT OF 5 AWARDS...
althou one award went to Mawi... #$^$%*%#@@!$^&%^(

the award i was hoping Taufik would win...pfft...
but nevermind...
look on the brighter side of life...
he won 3 freaking awards lorr!!! HAHAHAHAH...

thanks to the ever-so-fanatic-Fiknatics for their crazy support...
and to cher being my sms-reporter frm the stadium itself... hehe...
and to TiQ for accompanying my crazy-ness in MySpace...
we shall set aside golf balls to *campak* at the winner hokay!!
-insert evil laugh- *MUAHHAHAHAHAHAA*

and Mal..so sorry we dint get to chill at yur place...
and watch RAIN's dvd kan!!!
nvm..we shall make a date soon aites!!
u better stop playing yur game soon...
HAHAHAHAHAH...jahat sak...

ok..now my life story...
i met this ang mo cutie online...
we chatted on msn last night...
a cool guy i must say...
i had fun laughing and chatting wif him...
too bad he's going back to Chicago next weekend for 3 weeks...
hope i can meet him before i go KL... :\
as friends la of coz..HAHAHAH...

my mp4's batt's dead...
how to go home later!! urgh...

2007-06-05T02:15:00.000+08:00

arghhh!!
i've just finished watchin Taiwanese show 'Devil Beside you'...

the devil's stares...i cannot tahan pls...
devil so suai...his killer stare and smile...
can melt yu straight away...
i tink if his eyes have laser beams....
it can make a huge hole right thru yu...HAHAHA...

the show's great...
i give it 7 out of 10...
cz i find the ending is too simple...
i mean...they went thru all obstacles to finally be accepted...
and the ending made me think... "THAT'S IT?"
ok...look at the bright side...
at least they dint die...
unlike some shows... pfft...

wen ahmon aka the devil made a decision to go to Italy...
i cried!!! and i was cursing!! WAT THE HELL!!!
i sooo pity Qi Yue....she went thru soo much...
and in the end..he wanted to leave her ehh!!
mothertoad btol....
they went thru sooo many sadness only to get such ending...
too dramatic can!!
the seperation sooo sad ar...
but they slept wif each other...HAHAHAHHA...
too much in love larr...

i like Yuan Yi and Qing Zi...
their relationship is so uniQue...
n i like the part Yuan Yi bonded wif Qing Zi's dad...HAHAHAHA...
they drank for 3 days and 3 nights hokay!! HAHAHAHAH...
freaking cutee!!

but i realised in this show...
all the girls very brave lor...
they dared to confess their feelings...

well...except for devil's case of course...

and the guys...all soo quai...so baik-baik...
HAHAHAHAHA...and the guys sooo square...
macam cannot get it if the girl beat around the bush...
must go straight to the point....

but to think of it...
in reality...guys are also like that hor!! HAHAHAHAHAH...

but amazingly...
devil managed to understand a girl so well..
despite being a devil...HAHAHAHAHA...

i wonder is Rain can act as a devil...
hmmm...
im sure he can!! hehehehe...

i still love ISWAK and My Girl's ending the best!!!
Hanakimi's still rated the worst ending ever!!!
HAHAHAHAHA...

well...
what show is next om the list?
i shall see first... :)

watched Shrek 3 wif my darling Fiknatic sistaz just now...
it was uber funny lorr!!
i love itt!!

Congrats to AziQ's sister whu got married on Sunday...
sorry we arrived late eh aziq...
biase lar...
STAR karat...HAHAHAHAH...
we meet soon k sis!

2mrw off...
i plan to search for a saloon to trim my hair...
hmmm...
see how lor...
till next entry den!!

2007-06-02T07:27:00.000+08:00

PC Show @ Suntec was sucky...

ok..maybe its becoz i dint buy anything...
well..i dun have anything to buy mah!
currently...
i've got everything that i ever wanted...!! *smilez!*
gadget-wise i mean... hehe...
ouh...except my pink psp...
which i have no freaking idea why i wanted it!!!
i tink bcoz its PINK!! HAHAHAHAH....
but its not a neccessity for now...
so it can wait... :)

but if u wanna survive in the PC show...
bring a bottle of water and be prepared to be in VERY close contact wif strangers!!
HAHAHAH...its like everyone is stuck in a fish bowl!!
me n my dad were looking for car speakers...dun hav ar...boo-hoo~!
weakk abisss!!

after that i treated daddy n my younger siblings to KFC...
den we proceeded to look for METRO...
why Marina Square got no more METRO arhh!!! buat penat jalan jekkk... pfft...
so we went to Paragon...
which i met my ex-collegues... :)
bought myself a white Neckermann sandal...and 2 tops for my lil sis...
using my dad's $50 voucher! hehe...
toopid Metro dun hav decent cheap shoes lar...
shud hav gone to Causewaypoint Metro instead...there have lotsa nice shoeess!!

now i wanna get myself a hap/cap can!! hehehehe...
ape angin ntah tetiba nak topi ni budak... ;p

cant wait to meet my darling sistaz tis Sunday...
AziQ's sister wedding~!! must be there for aziq mah...
the wedding must be lovely...
took PH leave just for that hor! haha...
wat shud i wear...hmmm...nisa? wat u wearing? hehe..

i have sooo many plans lined up for June...
even watching Shrek 3 wif my sistaz on Monday!!
makin bankrupt la nampaknyerrr...HAHAHAHA...

to cher...
may u find yur hp soon...
and no longer be disconnected frm the world...
see yu soon dear~

till next time den...

2007-05-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

as i was searching for 'Im Cyborg but that's ok' sypnosis...
[because im trying to make myself understand..abt the ending..]
i found this...

OMG! kiyut kan!! wif his "ribbon-hair"...
i lurve his yodel...
i cant believe he actually went to learn frm a famous yodel-er how to yodel so nicely...
and he also practiced his table-tennis...
dats why he's so good in ping-pong in the show!!
dats how dedicated he is in his line of work... *awww...*

i dint find only dat cute foto...
i found this too!!

my "road for rain" dvd...
which i got a feeling im going to get it sooner than i thought...
weeee~~!!

well...
let's see my current fav. pix dat i found...

haiz..
how can yu NOT fall for sumone like him??
i dun mind his sepet eyes...at all!! HAHAHAHA...

on another note...
trip to IKEA tamp and Courts wif my bro was super fun!!
we went mini-shopping...
HAHAHAH...
he bought himself a 2GB mp3 player for $99 @ courts...
and i bought some things for my lil sis at IKEA...
wanted to buy a frame...but i shall wait for next mth lar...
and i almost bought Charmed DVD @ $70 and Rain's DVD+CD @ $25...
urghhh...i cant buy it coz i need to save up for my KL trip next mth...
nvm...next mth pay still have...HAHAHAHA...

well...
we had fun laughing cz my bro kept going to the wrong road...
nasib baik motor!! boleh pusing-pusing...
kalau krete!! nak pusing kat mane! HAHAHAHA...

went for our dinner at LJS and we chatted abt lots of things...
glad dat i chatted wif him... :)

oklar...
till my next post den...

2007-05-30T02:54:00.000+08:00

urghhh...

i dunnoe why must RAIN'S shows have all these weird-weird endings larr...
that time ALTK... now this... urgh...

'Sang Doo! Let's go to school'..have a very confusing ending...
i was lost when i watched the ending...
did they die? or did they run away? or they are in another whole "other world"?
but i got a feeling they died...so they are kinda in a 'world of their own'...
get it?
toopid ending...REALLY...

and no difference for 'Im Cyborg, But that's OK'...
this ending much worst...
im completely dumbfounded...
its a really weird movie entirely...
with sweet moments here and there...
but the ending spoils it all lar...
i dun get it at all...
totally lost...
pfft~

nevermind larr!!
at least i get to watch RAIN act...
in his usual cute ways...and his smile!! *cair-mode*
one thing i noticed so far in all his shows...
he is always brushing his teeth!! hehehehe...
cute la hokay!!

so far only Fullhouse have a proper ending for RAIN'S shows...
althou its not that very great lar...
compared to ISWAK...

but RAIN's Zang-Ga's dance in Sang Doo! is freaking CUTE!!!
i was laffing non-stop...
u guys shud watch the way he danced...
so quirky and farnie...yet so cute...

and in 'Im cyborg but that's ok'...
he yodel-ed...
so nice larr!!
i even recorded it in my voicemail...
so those whu cant get thru my hp...
will get to listen to his ever-so-wonderful-voice...

ok...
now let me watch his other music videos...
2mrw's my off day!! finally...
im going IKEA tamp. wif my bro..bosta..
yay-ness~!!

till next time...~

2007-05-29T19:18:00.000+08:00

ok darlings~

the NLB emailed me n said i can request any book i want..

so if u have any malay or english novels in mind...
so do inform me the title and the author's name aites! :)

tonight i'll be watching the last episode of Sang Doo! Let's go to school...
i got a feeling that the ending wont be great...
haiz...
why do Rain always get such sad/uninteresting endings...
i cried watching the show...
cz their love is so strong and yet they are fighting against bloody FATE...
and all that led to my previous entry...
all the love stuffs...
sorry for the emotional entry...
im really at a emo state of mind at that moment of time...
his "daughter" Bori is cute lor! so chubby~
and i cant help laughing each time every show dat RAIN acted in...
the script writers always teased his eyes!
HIS MATA SEPET...SOO?? biar larr...!
cute apeee!! HAHAHAHA...
the part when the little kids teased his eyes...
so freaking farnie lorr...! hehehehe...

well...
i've already downloaded 'Devil Beside You' and 'Im Cyborg but it's ok'..
so i'll be waiting these soon... weee~~!

i want to get myself Rain's dvd...
hmmm...wait till i have xtra cash... :) hehe...

till my next entry den...~

2007-05-27T03:36:00.000+08:00

..Love..

why do we yearn for it...
even thou we know the hurt it will cause...
why do we feel lonely without it...
even thou we know the trouble it will cause...

i told myself...
never again will i think of him...
never again will i miss him...
never again will i want him...
never again will i hear him...
never again will i fall for him...
NEVER...

i told myself...
i will get over him...
i told myself...
i will move on with my life...

but...

why is it so darn hard to move on...

why is he on my mind when i think abt love...
why is he on my mind when i yearn for love...
why is he on my mind when i alone...
why must it be him that appears whenever my mind is blank...

it have been nearly 4 years now...

i closed myself to love...
i shut my heart frm welcoming anyone...
just because i dun wanna be hurt anymore...

the more i hate him...
the more i miss him...

the pain still linger...
the scar is still there...

im truly tired...
im really exhausted...

i really badly want to move on...

after all these pain...i endured...
althou i believe deep in my heart i still love him...

but...
never will i turn back to him...

i really wished i've never met him ever in my life...
coz the hurt he caused is just too much...

im just sick of crying over him for the past 4 years...
please let me go...

2007-05-25T02:23:00.000+08:00

i simply cant believe i dint blog for so many days...
i've been busy having fun and being sick on and off for the past few days...

my bday have been a bitter-suweet journey...
been receiving gifts frm my oppa [read: abg/elder bro]..my collegue..mal..hira..and even my boss! HAHAHA...

thanks sooo much darlings~

my bro gave me perfume...
hmmm...frankly speaking...i aint such a big fan of perfumes...
hehehe...but the perfume he gave me really have a pleasant sweet smell!
i likeee~~!!

Hira...thanks for ya notepad/letter-writing pad...
u want me to write lyrics too ar? heheheh...

Mal...i really really really lurrrveee yur prezzie larr!!
now i love yu even more! HAHAHAHA...

as for my boss's gift...
he gave me a red Mercedes-Benz purse...its really nice..~
but here's the catch...he did not peel off the price tag...
its $58++ sia!! HAHAHAHA...
i assume he did that on purpose... chet~!!
nvm..as long as he did not deduct it frm my pay ok liao...hehe...
he gave to my 2 other collegues as well...
i like it ar...

received a accessories set and a pink & red flower frm my collegue...
i like the flower!! its the one frm Popular...
u know the one wif the lazy eyes??
i've been wanting to buy it...but i kept delaying...
now i got it!! weee~!!!

and the bday song and cake frm the Fiknatics at KFC @ Marina...
althou i was embarrassed... its really sweet...
thanks to cher... haha...
love yu la babe...

Blades of Glory was disgusting-ly - hilarious....
i nearly puked...bcoz its disgusting...
and i laughed so hard...hehehe...
chilling wif my 2 sistaz...shad and nisa was relaxing...
but idiotics just had to spoil my evening...pfft~

watever it is....
my Sentosa trip was a success!!!
everyone [only 4 of us]...had endless-mindless fun..fun and fun!!!
im glad it dint rain...
and i dun regret spending $33.50 for the whole trip!!
weee~!!! till our next fun crazy trip...

i wanna watch Sang doo...
haiz...i wonder when i'll finish watchin it...
nisa watched so many shows liao...unfair larr!!
nvm...i shall take my time to watch Rain... *cair*

watchin RAIN makes me well when im really sick...
seriously!! ;)

2007-05-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

aites...so here's my update..
its the time of the month again... only this time...its a bit different...
in my workplace alone we have 3 that have the same birthdays in the same mth!!
all next to each other summore... n one more 20th ar... tu punyer sesat...HAHA..

this is our company calender... messy right? HAHAHAH...
but i lurve it! so many details...hehe...

soo...this year...i got some of my prezzies afew days earlier ar...
so i chose to open the prezzies at the stroke of midnight!
so very the impatient la hokay! aHakz!

...before the stroke of midnight...

...gifts frm my darling Fiknatic Sistaz...
thanks so much la darlingsss!! love the mirror..
soooo my kaler lar!! ade heartshapes lagikk!! HAHAHAH...
the chocs...hmmm...my dad n lil sis almost ate it thinking its Ferrero...hehehe...
nahz...i wont eat it la ok? sooo sayang seh...
ouh! there's one more... the card...
which is filled wif korean + mandarin language inside...

but i lurrrveee the pix in front lorrr!!
whu wouldnt??? its all my PRECIOUS HEROS...

..RAIN..Wu Zun..Ji Hoon..
[btw..mal..i typed RAIN in caps so dat ppl dun tink im talking abt real HUJAN..HAHA]

so yeahhh....next is the prezzie frm my sis at my workplace...

such a cute orange bag..hehehe...i like it...

and also a prezzie frm one of the student...she saw our calender la...so paiseh!

yeah...its Bobbi Brown Make-up set...
erm...its really nice.. but i dun use make-up seh...
so i think i'll have to start sooner or later den...
cher dun force me! pfft..~

my accountant whose bday is this friday...
bought me fish&chips for lunch...my bday lunch! hehe...so delish~

and my younger siblings bought me dinner...
KFC & LJS...
aiyooo...how to finish!? HAHAHAH...
but i love them regardless...

ooohhh...dear mummy hid my bday ang pao in my room...yay~!

n daddy bought me a mp4 player! weee~~!! initially i wanted to buy it myself...
but he said he'll pay for it...for my bday! suuweet kann!!

so now...i can watch RAIN's vids everywhere i goo!! best kannn!! *cair*

last but not least...
my own treat for my bday...

yes...i pampered myself with a new hp...the new gadget i bought into my life...
which i resisted to use till my bday...hehehe...my N6300...!!
and i bought myself RAIN'S COMING DVD as well!!!
ooouhhh...im sooo loving my prezziess!!

thanks so much to everyone that...
sms-ed...msn-msg...frenster-msg...forum thread...blog entries...and even the calls...

everyone knew i love RAIN...so everyone included the word RAIN or korean in their msgs...i kept laughing at work when i read the msgs...
so farnie la u people...

especially the gifts...
hira..thx for the poem..
from the bottom of my heart...
i really thank all of u guys for being soooo sweet larr!!
i really appreciated it...

i was truly touched when i received a sms frm my favourite teacher..Mr Sri..
my teacher frm ITE...3years ago...
he wished me Happy Bday...
i dint know he would still remember even after 3yrs++...
its just like last year!
love u so much la cher!!!
u really made my day... ;)

strangely...i had difficulty writing today's date at work...
i kept wanting to write 16.05.1984 instead of 16.05.2007...
HAHAHAHAHA...
back into past?

my wish i made frm last year...
hoping i'd fulfill it tis year...
it wasnt accomplished...
nvm...there's always next year...

take care then...
lots of love...
*muacks!*

// edit //

OMG! Taufik blogged...on my bday!
how cool is that??
his Tokyo entry is sooo fun wif all the pixtures larr...
hehehe...
can i go Korea? ;p

Happy Burstday to ME!!

2007-05-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

ouh well...

its the time of the year yet again...
YES...i turned another year older...
am i happy or am i not? eh...i dunnoe myself...
mixed feelings i guess...

the day's so far so good...
except for an idiotic parent called to complain..
and my bestie dint ask me out even thou she's freaking OFF today lor!
pfft..

will update again later tonight lar...
gotta go back to work now!

later!

ouh yah...

Happy Birthday tooooo MEEEE!!! ;p

2007-05-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD...!!

i finally got wat i want...
weee~!! *pamperingSELFmode*
i bought sumting for myself in which i'll only use in a few days time...
so i shall resist using it!!!
hehehee...

my elder bro is contemplating on whether he shud get himself a PSP...
wooo~!! i want a pink PSP can?!
HAHHAAHHA...
but i dunnoe for goodness wat i need a PSP for...
but tink abt it...
a pink PSP is just too pretty to resist la hokay!
maybe i shall get it anytime tis year...
i've been splurging quite alot eh...
aiyoooo!!!

i wonder when can i start to watch 'Sang Do! Let's go to school'...
haiz...
lately...work have been hectic...
have been working either night or morning shifts...
so i cant afford to sleep late...
i want to watch RAIN!!! :x
nisa stop tempting me by saying the show daym nice hokay!
u watch too many shows at one time la...HAHAHAHA...

oh...by the way...
i said RAIN seldom wear clothes...as in the top ar...dats common sense watt...
i dint say anyting abt RAIN seldom wear seluar per? HAHAHAHA...
kalau RAIN tak pakai seluar...he's nekkid beb!
sape yg notty skarang? ish ish...kau ponnn....HAHAHAHA....
and mal...
18 yrs already can see RAIN sexy bod arh...?
but i tot sumone is innocent? *ahem*ahem*
no worries laaa...
i made my layout in consideration that i wont scar yur "innocence-ness"...
see!! im soo caring hor... ;p

till next time den...~

2007-05-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all lovely Mothers out there!!
especially to my mummy!!!

althou u always nag at me...
althou u threw away my Farenheit Mag.. [arghhh!!]
althou u always have sumting to scold me about...
i knew u are doing all these for my own good.. [xcept for my Farenheit mag!]

althou i raised my voice at times..[Oops!]
althou i ignored yur naggings... ;p
althou at times i dun listen to u...
althou i find it a chore to help u ard the house.. [err...]

regardless of all that...
i will always love u... no matter what...
i seriously don't know what will happen to me if sumting happen to yu mummy!
Love ya always~! *hugs*

// ..now abt me.. //

how my layout??!
Rain..!!! i likeeee~~!!!
see my 'bitchin` time' link...a small pix of Rain winking sehh!! hehe..
oouuhh...i even added my own 'Drama List' under 'my heart' link...
see the upcoming dramas im goin to watch!! weee~!!!
initially i wanted to put Rain's sexay pix...
but my darling readers some are underage lar... *coughmalcough*
so cannot larr...hahahaha...
later their "innocence-ness" taken away...HAHAHAH..
so admire la Rain's Ijuksa aka A Love To Kill pichas hokay!!
and all links are updated! *peace*

Rain & Wuchun always rock my socks.. ;p